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[virous]

im at my wits end everything is not ok and im tired of pretending like it is ok and pretending im happy when im not.im not happy with out you i cant go one second of the day without thinking about you.you always made me so happy when i was with you and now im always getting so pissed at every one and just flying off on them i miss you so much now more then anything i would give anything to have you back you were so good to me you always made me happy and without you im always down and out its hurting me so much to know that i dont and cant have you im just at the end of my string all i can do is break down and cry but it dosent ever solve anything im tired of waiting for you im tired of crying i keep on thinking every day you will call and you will say yes but i wait and wait for you to call and then you dont and i cry your killing me you could atleast call and say no instead of making me wonder the baloon you got me for v day is still floating in my room but its slowly going down just like my moral i still have they teddy bear you got me i sleep with it every night the roses and the stuffed animal i got you well youve probably burned them you probably hate me if you dont call by saturday then im gonna call you and get the anser and if i dont get one ill know what you really wanna say and i will get tired of life like im doing right now ill probably kill my self its not like i will be missed by you or any one else if i died every one would cheer and party no one would come to my funeral not even you or my family you would have a yay hes dead party no one would cry no one would even think about it mabe its better if i do just die

-dave