im already gone
todays doctors appointment for my knee what not exactly what i was expecting.
after all of my effort and tears this last month, my knee can not bend as far as its supposed to by this point.
the solution?
i have to go under anestesthia (sp?) again so my doctor can bend my knee far enough to break up everything inside thats making it impossible for me to do.
when is this happening?
Friday. whats this friday? My college visit to Ursinus. whats not happening anymore? my college visit to Ursinus.
i was so upset i cried in the office of the surgery scheduler lady. she wanted to cry too. i cant not get my knee fixed but i was looking forward to going to Ursinus for MONTHS. and now i cant go.
and not only that but i feel like my doctor doesnt think my therapists are good enough because of where my knee is right now. and thats the worst feeling ever because i love my therapists with all my heart and i know they are doing the best they can. so that really hurt me.
but over all this entire situation SUCKS. my knee has barely progressed and is so far from being where it needs to be. and not only that but its ruining everything left that makes me happy. ive been so depressed lately and i dont think people realize how hard im taking this. fuck.
after all of my effort and tears this last month, my knee can not bend as far as its supposed to by this point.
the solution?
i have to go under anestesthia (sp?) again so my doctor can bend my knee far enough to break up everything inside thats making it impossible for me to do.
when is this happening?
Friday. whats this friday? My college visit to Ursinus. whats not happening anymore? my college visit to Ursinus.
i was so upset i cried in the office of the surgery scheduler lady. she wanted to cry too. i cant not get my knee fixed but i was looking forward to going to Ursinus for MONTHS. and now i cant go.
and not only that but i feel like my doctor doesnt think my therapists are good enough because of where my knee is right now. and thats the worst feeling ever because i love my therapists with all my heart and i know they are doing the best they can. so that really hurt me.
but over all this entire situation SUCKS. my knee has barely progressed and is so far from being where it needs to be. and not only that but its ruining everything left that makes me happy. ive been so depressed lately and i dont think people realize how hard im taking this. fuck.