"Help! I need somebody! Not just anybody!!"
Today was an alright day however I started it out crying in bed....:( I was peeved that I missed my first class...again. I can't stand myself lately. This is an all-time low for me academically. I am not coming back next semester. I have decided that. I need a break bad. My mom can't seem to understand that I can't handle 12 units worth of music classes. I have to pace myself. I will be a trooper and stick it out for the rest of this semester. I hope I pass all my classes. I will take C's if I have to. I'm just tired of this. I'm tired of failing. And I'm tired of writing these entries......I need a life. I need to work and teach and make music.
I'm glad to say though, that I am improving on my recital repertoire. I just need to play some public performances and get over my nerves. God has gotten me through a lot this semester. Maybe I am not supposed to be in school right now. I'm just not cut out for it. I don't have the motivation. I don't care anymore. That's bad........I feel that if I take a much needed break, then the next time around I will be more successful. Because well...I won't hate school.
Work is work. It's exhausting. I am behind in all of my classes. Music still makes me happy though. :) I am playing guitar for Freedom now!!! I'm very proud of myself for this. AND this gives me a chance to play jazz!!! Yay! Well I am beat and I am going to relax. It's been a long week. I hope God is blessing my friends. :)
I'm glad to say though, that I am improving on my recital repertoire. I just need to play some public performances and get over my nerves. God has gotten me through a lot this semester. Maybe I am not supposed to be in school right now. I'm just not cut out for it. I don't have the motivation. I don't care anymore. That's bad........I feel that if I take a much needed break, then the next time around I will be more successful. Because well...I won't hate school.
Work is work. It's exhausting. I am behind in all of my classes. Music still makes me happy though. :) I am playing guitar for Freedom now!!! I'm very proud of myself for this. AND this gives me a chance to play jazz!!! Yay! Well I am beat and I am going to relax. It's been a long week. I hope God is blessing my friends. :)