This Year's Love
omg its almost over, i cant believe it. i was crying today. i wasnt even thinking about anything and the tears just rolled down my face like i had a leak or something. i couldnt stop and i texted manda to tell her, she was worried cuz she thought something was wrong with me. but i was crying cuz i was at my awards brunch (for ROTC) and we presented our senior gift to Col. and MSgt. and MSgt looked like he was gonna start crying when katie (cordova) was presenting her speech and then when we presented our plaques that we got them...like they need anymore, lol! but then we all sat down and Col. went up to speak and he was saying how he was so proud of us and that we were a great group cuz we were full of joy and spunk. and then he started to choke (like chock up from crying0 and he walked away from the microphone. we walked away, faced the wall and was crying. he'd never cried at any other brunch i'd been to...and this is my 3rd one. so i was really surprised and i just started bawling. i couldnt help it and ppl were surprised that i was crying. sorry to disappoint some of you, but i am human and i do have feelings...sometimes (just kidding!!) but then i went up to give Col. and MSgt a hug and i just started crying again. they were shocked by it...again, i do have feelings :) but i just think that i suddenly realized that this is the end, this is the last time that a lot of us will be together. i'm gonna miss the fights that i had with friends, the long nights at ihop that i spent with sara and sam during winter vacation, the late night talks that i had with manda, the feuds i had with bryce, the good and bad times i've had with gill, the comforting that i gave tiff, the support i gave reagan when she was down (cuz remember reagan, i'm your mother...lol), the love i tried to give jenna and love and tyler and sara(h) (m and d) and everyone. i'm just gonna miss everything! i just dont think i really realize that some of us may never talk again after this...which i hope doesnt happen...i want to keep in touch with all of you (even those that i may not talk to that much now) i still care about all of you in your own way! so, as i sit here and try to think of the right words to say to all of you, i dont really have those words...all i have to say is congratulations! congrats to all of you that worked so hard to get here and to succeed in the horrible life of being a teen and being in high school. it really likes to chew you up and spit you out! also, it really was a struggle...not only for me, but a lot if not all of us! i just want to say that i am proud of EVERYONE, not just a select few, but EVERYONE. i will miss you all when this is over and i hope that we can all be successful in all that we do! GOD BLESS everyone! i love you! i will see you all on the football field when we are all accepting our diplomas!