Love is weird...
GOD DAMNIT;;
I LOVE HIM.
so, i'm kinda glad i had ISS today. becuase i wrote him a 2&ahalf page letter. i mean, i've been over how i feel about him a million times, but i mean i'm in ISS, have nothing better to do then to spill my fucking heart to a piece of paper, so i figured i'll write him a letter. &i confronted him about all the bullshit, i made him read the letter in front of me &then respond in person. it is SO FUCKING HARD to tell someone you love them in person when you really mean it. i didn't know that at all. because it was so easy to spread those three words around like AIDS. &i mean i've told him i loved him before in person, but this time..like..the way i was trying to say it wouldn't come out. i was trying to tell him that on friday night, the sex wasn't the only thing that i enjoyed. i enjoyed just being there next to him, just him &me. &the way it felt like we could say anything or do anything we wanted. i don't know how to explain it, but i was trying to tell him that &i couldn't! &he was like "i wish you wouldn't chokeup &just let me know what you're trying to say" &so i tried one last time &it came out. &he was like "i know what you mean" idk it felt good telling him that. &then he walked me home, holding my hand &all, but it was cute how i had to ask. lol then we got to my house &we just stood there, &i was waiting for a kiss, of course heh or an "i love you" but he just kept trying to be cute &talk abuot other things like a fucking airplane passing. &blah blah blah, then i was like shut up. can i get a kiss? &he pecked me, it was so cute &i looked at him funny &i was like COME HERE. &grabbed him &kissed him the way i like it. hehe. &he smiled =] &we're both suspended tomorrow, so def. gunna be hanging out. i love how one minute i feel like i hate him &the next minute i'm head over fucking heels. i love it tho. i really do, almost as much as i love him.
it's the best feeling in the world;
but......he's moving to tennesee June17th.
he says he'll def. come back, he comes back everytime he moves there.
cuz his mom lives there. &his g-parents live here. but i know he'll be back..
it just puts a dent on the relationship, i'm pretty sure it'll be really hard
but i know i'll get through it. i love him. nothing else matters.
kthnx.
<3
bytheway.
NEW LJ.
slackerbxtch
add it//yes.
I LOVE HIM.
so, i'm kinda glad i had ISS today. becuase i wrote him a 2&ahalf page letter. i mean, i've been over how i feel about him a million times, but i mean i'm in ISS, have nothing better to do then to spill my fucking heart to a piece of paper, so i figured i'll write him a letter. &i confronted him about all the bullshit, i made him read the letter in front of me &then respond in person. it is SO FUCKING HARD to tell someone you love them in person when you really mean it. i didn't know that at all. because it was so easy to spread those three words around like AIDS. &i mean i've told him i loved him before in person, but this time..like..the way i was trying to say it wouldn't come out. i was trying to tell him that on friday night, the sex wasn't the only thing that i enjoyed. i enjoyed just being there next to him, just him &me. &the way it felt like we could say anything or do anything we wanted. i don't know how to explain it, but i was trying to tell him that &i couldn't! &he was like "i wish you wouldn't chokeup &just let me know what you're trying to say" &so i tried one last time &it came out. &he was like "i know what you mean" idk it felt good telling him that. &then he walked me home, holding my hand &all, but it was cute how i had to ask. lol then we got to my house &we just stood there, &i was waiting for a kiss, of course heh or an "i love you" but he just kept trying to be cute &talk abuot other things like a fucking airplane passing. &blah blah blah, then i was like shut up. can i get a kiss? &he pecked me, it was so cute &i looked at him funny &i was like COME HERE. &grabbed him &kissed him the way i like it. hehe. &he smiled =] &we're both suspended tomorrow, so def. gunna be hanging out. i love how one minute i feel like i hate him &the next minute i'm head over fucking heels. i love it tho. i really do, almost as much as i love him.
it's the best feeling in the world;
but......he's moving to tennesee June17th.
he says he'll def. come back, he comes back everytime he moves there.
cuz his mom lives there. &his g-parents live here. but i know he'll be back..
it just puts a dent on the relationship, i'm pretty sure it'll be really hard
but i know i'll get through it. i love him. nothing else matters.
kthnx.
<3
bytheway.
NEW LJ.
slackerbxtch
add it//yes.