ok....this is random thoughts on my mind. nothing really big to read, i just need to get it out
start - 12:34 am.
song - led zeppelin - no quarter
i am the worst girlfriend. and the worst girl friend material that any person can possible be or get.
the cat licks my arm, shes knows that i am sad.
i think its really hard for me to actaully put anything here, i cant even get any of my feelings out typing, so many thoughts, and i cant organize them into a clear thought that would make sense.
i am cold. i just stood out in the rain, because i felt so stupid because i cant do anything right ever.
it feels like i am slowly starting to go backwards again, i was getting close to the peak of being happy and not having bad thoughts or feelings anymore. tonight feels like i wrecked anything that i have accomplished in the past few months. its sickening how pityful i am, thinking that i can actually be happy for once, and not ruin things that are actually important to me. i always ruin things. i am sorry, for everything and anything i have ever done to hurt anyone.
i dont think i can say anymore right now. its done.
end - 12:42 am.
song - kansas - dust in the wind
song - led zeppelin - no quarter
i am the worst girlfriend. and the worst girl friend material that any person can possible be or get.
the cat licks my arm, shes knows that i am sad.
i think its really hard for me to actaully put anything here, i cant even get any of my feelings out typing, so many thoughts, and i cant organize them into a clear thought that would make sense.
i am cold. i just stood out in the rain, because i felt so stupid because i cant do anything right ever.
it feels like i am slowly starting to go backwards again, i was getting close to the peak of being happy and not having bad thoughts or feelings anymore. tonight feels like i wrecked anything that i have accomplished in the past few months. its sickening how pityful i am, thinking that i can actually be happy for once, and not ruin things that are actually important to me. i always ruin things. i am sorry, for everything and anything i have ever done to hurt anyone.
i dont think i can say anymore right now. its done.
end - 12:42 am.
song - kansas - dust in the wind