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[virginialynn]

originally i wanted some huge three-day event spanning even a week if i could make it, but of course i can't. i don't have the life in me to have that much fun and it probably would not live up to the expectations that come to think of it, it would not have anyways because let's be honest, when people think fun my name is not the first to crop up. i get like this around this time of year, always. i have no idea why either. i never actually want to go through with it because i do not want to have to deal with people not having fun, worrying if they are being entertained because i am easily entertained by all manners of things and so are they. har, our last day was spent practically in, upstairs in her room, heads close together poring over photographs online. but if i could, my very ideal ideal birthday would be the three of us down on iles de la madeleine sitting on a cliff somewhere, somewhere where we could dangle our legs and gently kick our feet with components of a sandwich with us, not assembled and which will be eaten messily. well if she is there, you know that there will be a mess because eleventh grade winter activities day has been seared into my long-term memory. should i ever get alzheimers and knock on wood i won't, although with my luck i will because my memory is deteriorating as we speak, i will remember sitting across from her marveling at the mustard all over her and the sandwich falling apart and on her. if i had my way it would be in san francisco or new york city but for now i'll settle with finally getting the car and driving us all over the city -except the highways, that's all you neciecon, with a homemade checklist for qualities that make a cupcake the best and visit several bakeries and patisseries and test them out and come out with a winner. i want us to be in sun dresses and sandals, in the car warmed by the sun and windows rolled down to let the breeze in and the radio blasting michelle branch.

also a day with her would be good, tucked away in a cafe with something chocolate for her and something fruity for me. or we both like the sun, since you're determined to move away to sunnier days and so we'll buy our pastries and sit outside in the sun catching up like no time has passed at all.