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i hate the whole feeling of whenever you get back from the club and you feel like you did nothing. i mean your drunkeness (if thats a word) has worn off and you feel like your whole life is a failure.
the world is crashing around me....school sucks my grades suck my family hates me and knows that i'm not going to pro-create...they know i'm gay...whatever..i need to move out...i need more money.... my friends are bitches and worst of all i'm single... single and still in love with my ex... and then to make matters worse my ex and i still talk... we talk almost everyday sometimes 2 x a day...sometimes not at all... and well our bdays are exactly 6 months apart... the first time we met we were wearing the same thing... she now without knowing where i work... works across the street from me... damn it i swear this world i fucked up.... man i love her so much and i don't know where i would be without her in my life. she loves me and tells me she loves me but is with a MAN! a MAN a fucking MAN damn it the worst thing in the world that could hurt my heart... a man and then lied to me about it and told me that HE was a SHE was a big lie...then i found out man...why god come on man why did i deserve this...oh well she still loves me and she tells me she does and she lives with him man i dont know the whole situation is fucked up...i'm still a little tipsy and i need to go to bed... later peeps.!!
rock ur socks off!!
JESS
the world is crashing around me....school sucks my grades suck my family hates me and knows that i'm not going to pro-create...they know i'm gay...whatever..i need to move out...i need more money.... my friends are bitches and worst of all i'm single... single and still in love with my ex... and then to make matters worse my ex and i still talk... we talk almost everyday sometimes 2 x a day...sometimes not at all... and well our bdays are exactly 6 months apart... the first time we met we were wearing the same thing... she now without knowing where i work... works across the street from me... damn it i swear this world i fucked up.... man i love her so much and i don't know where i would be without her in my life. she loves me and tells me she loves me but is with a MAN! a MAN a fucking MAN damn it the worst thing in the world that could hurt my heart... a man and then lied to me about it and told me that HE was a SHE was a big lie...then i found out man...why god come on man why did i deserve this...oh well she still loves me and she tells me she does and she lives with him man i dont know the whole situation is fucked up...i'm still a little tipsy and i need to go to bed... later peeps.!!
rock ur socks off!!
JESS