hum..
Im sad rite now:( I'm so sick of not getting what i need outta people. I'm so sick of just hooking up with people....well person not people. This person is like...god..everything.No matter how much I try to deny it I can't stop loving him. Fuck I mean 3 years of being fucking 2nd string you'd thik i get it that I'm just not what he wants...but somehow he can always make me believe thats not true. God this sucks so bad. I knew I shouldn't have hooked up with him again I knew it. but I need him, and if I can't have him menatally and emotionally then I mean at least i can have him phyically. I don't think I'm ever gonna be good enough for someone to love. I don't even know if I could handle someone loving me..i'd just fuck that up. Whatever i don't care.