And for the record.
I am quite all right accepting blame in this situation and while I love Erin, I want everyone to know that I agree with her decision.
While we were dating, Erin cheated on me several times. I forgave her.
When she first left, I will grant that my behavior prompted her departure, but I really don't think her response was proportional. Dumping her kids on her ex husband and leaving the state doesn't seem like a rational reaction.
She had promised to communicate. To let me know if anything I said or did bothered her. This did not happen.
Erin is a wonderful person, but she isn't perfect and she isn't faultless. She has surrounded herself with people who enable her bad behavior. I'm not going to be one of them.
The last ninth months of my life have been a whirlwind of emotion and I will never regret the role that Erin has played in my life. She has helped me see my own failings. However, the "cut and run" manner in which she handles her problems isn't something that I can have in my life.
I've spent the last 10 years of my life trying to accept responsibility for my own actions. It's been a long struggle, but I'm a better person for it. Erin still has to make this journey.
I will always regard her as a wonderful and hopeful chapter in my life. Sadly, I think Erin was using me to escape from one situation and found herself not liking what she had escaped into.
The words of love that she often spoke to me ring hollow in the place where my heart should be. My optimism is dulled somewhat but I'm resigned to taking care of what needs to be done. To taking care of my children. To taking care of myself.
It helps that I actually saw this coming. I've been preparing for this since she originally left. It's going to be a while before I'm all right, and there, but it will happen and my wonderful friends are helping me.
Thank you Erin. I love you. I'm sorry it didn't work out.
To my friends, thank you for the love and support.
While we were dating, Erin cheated on me several times. I forgave her.
When she first left, I will grant that my behavior prompted her departure, but I really don't think her response was proportional. Dumping her kids on her ex husband and leaving the state doesn't seem like a rational reaction.
She had promised to communicate. To let me know if anything I said or did bothered her. This did not happen.
Erin is a wonderful person, but she isn't perfect and she isn't faultless. She has surrounded herself with people who enable her bad behavior. I'm not going to be one of them.
The last ninth months of my life have been a whirlwind of emotion and I will never regret the role that Erin has played in my life. She has helped me see my own failings. However, the "cut and run" manner in which she handles her problems isn't something that I can have in my life.
I've spent the last 10 years of my life trying to accept responsibility for my own actions. It's been a long struggle, but I'm a better person for it. Erin still has to make this journey.
I will always regard her as a wonderful and hopeful chapter in my life. Sadly, I think Erin was using me to escape from one situation and found herself not liking what she had escaped into.
The words of love that she often spoke to me ring hollow in the place where my heart should be. My optimism is dulled somewhat but I'm resigned to taking care of what needs to be done. To taking care of my children. To taking care of myself.
It helps that I actually saw this coming. I've been preparing for this since she originally left. It's going to be a while before I'm all right, and there, but it will happen and my wonderful friends are helping me.
Thank you Erin. I love you. I'm sorry it didn't work out.
To my friends, thank you for the love and support.