For Better Or Worse
Something happened tonight that I simply didn't see coming. After being married for a little over a month, and home for less than two weeks, I came home to find that Erin had left. She had changed both or her cell phone numbers, removed herself from my friends lists on multiple sites and she simply wasn't there.
I had gone to work, planning to spend the evening with her watching a movie, rubbing her feet and spending some quality time with her.
Things have been rough since I got home. We had to find a place to live, we've had to pack and get things ready to move, her kids have been here during the week. I started a job at the Garden which takes a lot out of me considering everything else that has been going on.
We've both been stressed out. Perhaps I haven't been patient when I should have been but I've been trying to talk to her about my fears, about my concerns.
When I stood with Erin holding her hands in that wedding chapel, repeating the words of love and commitment, I meant every one. I still do.
I believe that any problem can be resolved if you just honestly communicate and listen to each other.
I'm very hurt. I'm very sad and I'm very scared right now, but a good friend took time out of their day to listen to me. To let me find my balance.
Erin, I love you. I understand if you can't or won't try to resolve this situation. From your response, I think it's evident that you don't think I'm the right partner for you. I can't change your mind.
I'm here when you want to talk. I have a feeling that you won't. I could have run from you when things got dicey, but I didn't. I'm still not running, but all I can do is let you know that I'm here.
I love you and I'm sorry you feel I let you down. Right now, I have to look out for my children and myself. I'll be here for you should you decide to reconsider.
My love for you has frightened me. It's scared me. It's a huge commitment and I understand wanting to run, but I haven't run. I'm still here, but that can only work if it goes both ways.
I had gone to work, planning to spend the evening with her watching a movie, rubbing her feet and spending some quality time with her.
Things have been rough since I got home. We had to find a place to live, we've had to pack and get things ready to move, her kids have been here during the week. I started a job at the Garden which takes a lot out of me considering everything else that has been going on.
We've both been stressed out. Perhaps I haven't been patient when I should have been but I've been trying to talk to her about my fears, about my concerns.
When I stood with Erin holding her hands in that wedding chapel, repeating the words of love and commitment, I meant every one. I still do.
I believe that any problem can be resolved if you just honestly communicate and listen to each other.
I'm very hurt. I'm very sad and I'm very scared right now, but a good friend took time out of their day to listen to me. To let me find my balance.
Erin, I love you. I understand if you can't or won't try to resolve this situation. From your response, I think it's evident that you don't think I'm the right partner for you. I can't change your mind.
I'm here when you want to talk. I have a feeling that you won't. I could have run from you when things got dicey, but I didn't. I'm still not running, but all I can do is let you know that I'm here.
I love you and I'm sorry you feel I let you down. Right now, I have to look out for my children and myself. I'll be here for you should you decide to reconsider.
My love for you has frightened me. It's scared me. It's a huge commitment and I understand wanting to run, but I haven't run. I'm still here, but that can only work if it goes both ways.