god i feel like a total douchebag
lots have been on my mind as of late....and this morning when i woke up to check my email this is what i got and it really made my day go to hell...
Thank you for applying for the position of Entry Level Cook-184-9C-5-05 (Hyatt Hotel Properties/Hyatt Regency Hill Country Resort). After careful consideration of your application, we regret to inform you that you have not been selected for this position.
GOD I FEEL SO HELPLESS I NEED A FUCKING JOB BAD!!!
I FEEL LIKE SHIT...DONT GET ME WRONG IM STILL HAPPY WITH MY LAYLA..BUT I FEEL LIKE NOTHING RIGHT NOW WITH THIS SHIT.....i just want to get money again....get a bloody car...go out...take my woman to places...shit even support her one day when we move out....cause i love my girl so much...i just feel like if i dont have a job within the next few months that she may leave me.,.... shit i even feel like i let my whole family down as well..i love them to death but i feel like a disapointment to them...the thing about me is that im a paranoid phreak....im very paranoid abou anything.....any small thing will set me off....i dont know what to do..i apply and apply but nothing ....god i feel like a total ass....im pretty much at the verge of crying right now.....but i shouldnt though i have to go back and do it again....but godammit!!!!!!
on the other note me and layla have been doing great..i love her to death she makes my day bright all the time
but damn....do i miss her.....and my bloody bday is coming up in 11 days wowsers im gonna be 23 now....damn and just two days ago i was reminiscing everything about my life....well just the good things not the bad.....oi vey i dont know...im just stressing pretty much.....god help me.....
Thank you for applying for the position of Entry Level Cook-184-9C-5-05 (Hyatt Hotel Properties/Hyatt Regency Hill Country Resort). After careful consideration of your application, we regret to inform you that you have not been selected for this position.
GOD I FEEL SO HELPLESS I NEED A FUCKING JOB BAD!!!
I FEEL LIKE SHIT...DONT GET ME WRONG IM STILL HAPPY WITH MY LAYLA..BUT I FEEL LIKE NOTHING RIGHT NOW WITH THIS SHIT.....i just want to get money again....get a bloody car...go out...take my woman to places...shit even support her one day when we move out....cause i love my girl so much...i just feel like if i dont have a job within the next few months that she may leave me.,.... shit i even feel like i let my whole family down as well..i love them to death but i feel like a disapointment to them...the thing about me is that im a paranoid phreak....im very paranoid abou anything.....any small thing will set me off....i dont know what to do..i apply and apply but nothing ....god i feel like a total ass....im pretty much at the verge of crying right now.....but i shouldnt though i have to go back and do it again....but godammit!!!!!!
on the other note me and layla have been doing great..i love her to death she makes my day bright all the time
but damn....do i miss her.....and my bloody bday is coming up in 11 days wowsers im gonna be 23 now....damn and just two days ago i was reminiscing everything about my life....well just the good things not the bad.....oi vey i dont know...im just stressing pretty much.....god help me.....