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wel i went to the doc the other day and found out that i have bronchitis. which really freakin sucks. whats funny is i have to use an inhaler every 6 hours to loosen up gunk and stuff in my lungs. (soudsn appetizing dont it?) the only sucky things is, well for one it tastes like hairspray, adn also it makes my heart pound like crazy and i get all jittery-like. very annoying. hence the reason why my last entry was so badly typed. my hands kept shaking and whatnot. but now me and daniel are inhaler buddies. i miss daniel lots lately. i had a horrible dream last night pertaining to dance team. it was way weird. like they were all practicing a dance that i hadnt learned, so you knwo i couldnt really do it, and ms jill was just getting mad at me and heather was being a bitch to me, and they wanted to kick me off the team. so then in my dream it was liek the end of practice when we all sit down and listen to jill talk about crap and i was sitting there srying my eyes out. noone seemed to notice, btu when i woke up, my face was coverfed in tears and i fetl sadder than i have in a while. i know that some of my meds for my bronch stufff is supposed to make me moody, but i dunno. i mean, i miss dance team when it was good and fun. when it was all stupid and well you know i was a fucking outcast everytime i went to practice. like, i got a along with the younger members, mainly because i didnt treat them differently because they werent seniors or officers or whatever. it was onlty ever the upperclassmen that were bitches to me. i miss all the girls who were younger and mre innocent, able to see that i truly cared about the team and all that. well, i guess its stupid to harp on thikngs like that now, so i may as well just froget it. dwelling on how things went with dance my last 2 years only makes me depressed. right, so yeah i also had a nother dream that involved a rather passionate kiss with none other than mister kevvy z, and that was hott. weird, but hott. anyways, i miss daniel badly, mainly because he works from 8 pm to 8 am friday through tuesday,a nd it really rough on us. i hardly ever see him, and when i do, he normally not conscious. it was better when he left early in the morning, cause then hed come home around 4 or 5. so we could still spend a good bit of time together. yeha ihe has like 3 days off, but still, hes so used to sleeping during the day and being awake at night, that its hard to go out and do stuff. the other night whne i couldnt sleep at all cause i couldnt bearthe, i ended up fgetting out of bed at 4 to get water and vaporrub, and ended up watching once upon a time in mexico with daniel and my dad. well, i really have to go clean teh bathroom upstairs now, cause a friend of my aunts is coming to stay for a few days and hell be staying upstairs in the loft. and considering tat was the toilet i puked all over, it could use a good cleaning. yeha, i guess im off even though ive been procrastinating for about and hour now. i miss everyone and kevin, you better your ass back in texas right now mister!!!!