Stung
Man. I just found out why there hasn't been any movie nights lately.
I've thought it's been odd, he usually always texts me on Sundays to ask if I'm up for a movie, read: quick fuck. Not that I've really thougth either of them essential for my stay, I did notice when it suddenly stopped after we got home from Boden.
Not only did the movie nights stop, so did everything. Suddenly we had no contact at all. He was never on MSN, never texted me and barely even said hi when we met.
Something was odd. Had I offended him in some way, without knowing it? Without even being there? I was indeed confuzzled.
Then we went swimming tonight; me, Susy and the new girl. It was in the showers afterwards. She admitted that she had "started seeing somebody". Here. In the village. And I knew. I just knew. It fit perfectly. How they had arrived just before we went. How he had barely said a word to me since I got back. How he had been "busy with school" every night. How he, who had asked me over for movies EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND since Christmas had all of a sudden completely stopped talking to me.
Of course.
It was obvious.
And it stings. It stung all night while we sat up talking. She was so in love, or in the beginning of falling in love. The titter, the smiles, the warm glow. I recognized it and knew it. I had never had any thoughts of making it serious with him, but I hadn't expected to be dropped so quickly.
Because it fucking stings.
I texted him afterwards, just a jokingly note to let him know I knew and didn't mind. Hopefully that'll cool him down and we'll at least be able to talk on MSN again. Once again I wish nothing had happened from the start. I liked the movie nights, even before he got single. I liked sitting in the dark with somebody who didn't mind touching and didn't just want to sleep with you. Somebody considerate.
Don't get me wrong, though. She is good for him. He is good for her. It is a match I won't ever get in the way of. I don't even wish he liked me better. I just want him back as a friend.
Crossing my fingers and signing off.
I've thought it's been odd, he usually always texts me on Sundays to ask if I'm up for a movie, read: quick fuck. Not that I've really thougth either of them essential for my stay, I did notice when it suddenly stopped after we got home from Boden.
Not only did the movie nights stop, so did everything. Suddenly we had no contact at all. He was never on MSN, never texted me and barely even said hi when we met.
Something was odd. Had I offended him in some way, without knowing it? Without even being there? I was indeed confuzzled.
Then we went swimming tonight; me, Susy and the new girl. It was in the showers afterwards. She admitted that she had "started seeing somebody". Here. In the village. And I knew. I just knew. It fit perfectly. How they had arrived just before we went. How he had barely said a word to me since I got back. How he had been "busy with school" every night. How he, who had asked me over for movies EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND since Christmas had all of a sudden completely stopped talking to me.
Of course.
It was obvious.
And it stings. It stung all night while we sat up talking. She was so in love, or in the beginning of falling in love. The titter, the smiles, the warm glow. I recognized it and knew it. I had never had any thoughts of making it serious with him, but I hadn't expected to be dropped so quickly.
Because it fucking stings.
I texted him afterwards, just a jokingly note to let him know I knew and didn't mind. Hopefully that'll cool him down and we'll at least be able to talk on MSN again. Once again I wish nothing had happened from the start. I liked the movie nights, even before he got single. I liked sitting in the dark with somebody who didn't mind touching and didn't just want to sleep with you. Somebody considerate.
Don't get me wrong, though. She is good for him. He is good for her. It is a match I won't ever get in the way of. I don't even wish he liked me better. I just want him back as a friend.
Crossing my fingers and signing off.