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In response to a previous post: I am crazy AND stupid. I feel that i should stop the momentum that i can feel rising, but my body screams 'just go with it!!!' and the words never reach my lips. Its my fatal flaw. Im not sure what to do and now these thoughts are consuming my head.
Ive been told so many times that i think too much, that i just need to go out there and live. well im fucking living already... when does it get easier to not think. thinking and feeling are so closely related, i cant lose one without losing the other. I have no regrets, i have no self-control, i have no boundaries, i have no limits...
Its really hard to fill out grad apps when my mind keeps wandering away from me. im thinking of making my journal friends only. There's really no reason, but atleast then id know who reads my journal and does not. Ive gone out or had someone over every day that ive been home. I need to keep this up. Im starting to panic since i have no plans yet for today. i dont want to be alone tonight... im tired of sleeping alone... baking cookies tomorrow! when are you guys coming home???
Ive been told so many times that i think too much, that i just need to go out there and live. well im fucking living already... when does it get easier to not think. thinking and feeling are so closely related, i cant lose one without losing the other. I have no regrets, i have no self-control, i have no boundaries, i have no limits...
Its really hard to fill out grad apps when my mind keeps wandering away from me. im thinking of making my journal friends only. There's really no reason, but atleast then id know who reads my journal and does not. Ive gone out or had someone over every day that ive been home. I need to keep this up. Im starting to panic since i have no plans yet for today. i dont want to be alone tonight... im tired of sleeping alone... baking cookies tomorrow! when are you guys coming home???