Sep 05, 2004 12:06
I woke up the other morning and didn't feel any different, nothing was out of place. Nothing significant in my perception of the world had changed, nor in any of the people I knew. Why is that important. The day before that morning 200 children in Russia were killed , in school , where they were supposed to be safe. Yet nothing in my life has changed. 200 children went screaming to their deaths and suffered , yet not at any moment did it affect me or any one I knew in any noticeable way.
Why is this special you ask? It isn't, and that the point. How many people dies a day? Maybe a hundred, no a thousand? How about millions, people you have never met or ever cared for. So think about this for one second, the days a re speeding by, your running out of the 800 million heartbeats or so that you have to use, and one day you will die. Your life will be over, all your goals that you have worked so hard to achieve will mean nothing. The effect of your death will hardly be felt.
What you do does not matter. Your petty complaints, do not matter , not now , not in death. Save your dignity, and keep your mouth closed. If you expect your savior to protect you , start praying to another god, there is no saving to be had.
Some times i sit , watching people for hours and I think , If I had a gun right now , and in mid conversation , shot any particular person right then and there, What would it change? Mostly the answer is nothing, it would change nothing that matters.
Survival, most try to survive never even knowing what survival means.
Save your tears and complaints for some one else, they of are no use here.