Jan 29, 2004 23:10
what is wrong with you? why are you in our lives? you're fucked. seriously you need to get your head fucking checked or re-checked or whatever.
quit your "i know best" bullshit talk and take a look at yourself! you're pathetic and sad. what do you do? nothing you have no life, but that doesn't mean you need to interfere with ours. fuck off.
you're like a fucking disease.
you have spread like the fucking cane toads or rabbits.
well here's your hit to the head with a golf club.
here's you lethal dose of miximatosis.
now get the fuck away.
do you realise how badly you have fucked everything up?
i take full responsibility for my own actions. i started the fire and i'll take that burden. i'm a fucking idiot too. but why would you throw petrol on an already burning blaze? we had that shit under control. it's not just me that you are hurting. innocent people that haven't done anything wrong are being infected by your poisonous tongue. stop for a minute and think about your self. your actions. where you are in the world. now look and see if that in ANY way fits in with our lives. yeah. thought not. i can't believe we were friends. that term is used to loosely. never again will i absent mindedly allow someone into my life. my heart. never again will i open up and show someone my bones laid bare. you knew my fears. if i could be bothered i would hate you but instead i hate myself for allowing this to happen. which i guess is where the hate should lay. you are you. that is how you are. i accept that and i blame myself for giving you my trust.
to the people that are getting hurt by this please believe me that i am so sorry. i have hurt people i haven't even met. i have hurt close friends. i'm sorry i'm so weak. i'm sorry for what i may do next. as stupid as it is. i wish i could fix all that is broken. i have fucked too much up now. this needs to stop. you need to stop fuelling the fire. everyone just fucking stop and let the fire burn itself out.
it's over.