HATE
I am very sad and depressed now. It bothers me that I have to be upset about this. Here is the story ok. Last weekend we went to marks friends mike, whom he works with now and picks up for work every morning and drops him off every night. So we went there last weekend for a visit and to pick up a computer desk from his house. When we got there mark said right away we have to leave. When I asked why he told me because this girl named sarah was there and he hated her, from when he lived in bradford in that apartment with a whole bunch of people she was one of the girls. I had maybe seen her once at that apartment like a year ago so I didnt even know who she was until he said that. I told him we should at least get the desk since we came all the way up here. We ended up staying for a couple of hours, and everything seemed fine, Mark just seemed kinda pissy, and not talkative cause he didnt want to be there, and that was the end of that. This weekend we went up there again, and on the way up there Mark tells me that during this week at some point this guy that was at mikes house too was over there again one night this week when Mark took mike home after work, and this guy told him, that the sarah girl wanted to talk to Mark and wanted his # or something. Then when Mark told Mike this guy said that Mike said that sarah girl was tell Mikes girlfriend that it was a good thing I was with mark or she would have been all over him. So this is on the way to his place so now I am fucking fumming!!!!!! What a skanky whore trying to get my bf when she knows we are together, and has now met me. FUCKING BITCH! You have to be a big fucking skank to do that kinda shit. So then we get there and I am still fucking furious because he just told me this. I was pissy the whole time we were there, just getting madder and madder. So I had a chance to talk to mikes gf alone and I brought it up and she said that only thing she knows is that sarah girl was telling her after we left that she hated me and I was a bitch. I DONT EVEN KNOW THAT FUCKING GIRL NEVER EVEN HAD A COVERSATION WITH HER IN MY LIFE! SO NOW NOT ONLY IS SHE GOING TO TRY TO GET WITH MY BF BUT SHE IS TALKING SHIT BEHIND MY BACK!! I swear to god I better not see her again or I will take a bat to the side of her ugly head with her nasty ass buck teeth. How dare someone do that what a skanky bitch. I wish I could get the whole story from someone. Now I am pissy and worried that she is going to try to go over to mikes house and get with mark, cause he is there every night to drop mike off at home and he ususally goes in a smokes a joint with him and stuff. I am paraniod now. Now I dont even want to see any of those people again. Fuck them all go to hell. I know what that girl was probally saying and what she will probally say to mark if she is there and mark is there without me. It will all be, why are you going out with her, you can do so much better, she is so fat and ugly, why are you going out with a cow. YA I AM FAT, IS THAT THE BEST INSULT YOU CAN GIVE YOU FUCKING WHORE, CANT FIND YOUR OWN BF YOU HAVE TO STEAL OTHER PEOPLES, THAT IS SO LOW. I AM FAT AND HE WOULD RATHER BE WITH ME THAT SOME BUCK TOOTHED SKANK. I said to Mark i guess she doesnt know that you hate her then does she. Like if he hates her so much than shouldnt she know this. I am confused and PISSSSSSSSED! I now I am going to be paraniod of Mark all the time. I wish I could just not see any of those people again. Why does this always have to happen to me. Now no matter how strong and tough I try to be I am constanly thinking, why would he want to be with me I am a fat cow, ugly, I have major issues. Perhaps he is sick of being with the same person for 5years its a long time. I am angry and sad, I just want to DIE.