Darling One

[violettestars]

Title: Darling One
Summary: 12.03 Coda. Mary's thoughts about the boys after leaving the bunker.
Rating: G
Genre/Spoilers: Spoilers for Season 12.
Warnings: N/A
Disclaimer: I own nothing. I'm just playing in Kripke's sandbox.

Comments

[metallidean_grl]

Perfectly stated. I understand her leaving and the need to reconcile the years, the loss, what has become of her boys; and finally, to mourn. I get that. It is just too bad that in her leaving it reopened a huge wound for Dean, the wound he has been carrying around for those 33 years that was never able to start healing until Mary walked back into his life that fateful night. Now the wound it bigger than before and who knows if it will ever be able to be closed again. If Dean will ever trust or allow her back into his life. It is sad that her leaving has caused such a chasm, such an emotional travesty for Dean and Sam. I get her need.

And yet, I mourn deeply for Dean. For that little 4-year-old boy who had his mother back, only to have lost her again. I mourn deeply for that little boy, that grown man. It truly has broken my heart.

Great POV story. Thanks for this.

[violettestars]

You're welcome. I'm glad you liked it. My heart breaks for Dean as well but I feel for Mary. She went to bed one night and now everything she knew is gone. Her husband's dead and her babies are grown men. I hope when Mary returns that Dean will let her back in and that he understands why she needed to take a step back. They are so much alike and I love seeing them together.

[metallidean_grl]

I also feel for Mary. Having to rebuild her life completely is a hard thing. Been there, lived that. Everything she knew is gone and she now has to adjust to this new norm. So yea, I do feel for her. But, loving Dean the way I love Dean, my heart is just breaking for him. His wound was starting to heal over, but has been ripped open again, and is once again is a gaping hole in his chest. When will this boy ever know and find real and true inner peace? If this were me, and she came back, it would take a long time for me to feel comfortable again to want to make myself vulnerable again and open up. Dean may be the same way. He may be closed off to her when she finally comes back. As much as I hate to see it, I really hope Show goes there because that would be a true progression in their story. All around it is a lose-lose situation. I just hope that someday, Dean's heartache can start to heal over again.

Watching Dean and Mary together has been a treat. They are a lot alike and it have been fun. We definitely need to see more of

[violettestars]

I hope Show goes there as well. I don't want it swept under the rug when they reunite. I want to see them work through it. I want to see Dean tell her how he feels and not hide behind witty remarks and his other self defense mechanisms. I feel for both of them especially Dean. He wanted everything to be okay so bad. It just breaks my heart to see him lose her again.

[borgmama1of5]

Those men in the bunker, her boys, expect so much of her

That's the heart of it...heartbreaking observation...

[violettestars]

Thank you for reading. The way Sam and Dean look at her, you can see all their expectations. She's like a myth to them. The pressure Mary must feel to live up to that. I understand why she left and I feel for all three of them.

[mdlaw]

This almost makes me forgive Mary for hurting the boys. m :)

[violettestars]

Aw thank you for saying that! After watching the episode last night I couldn't leave it there. I needed more from Mary than 'I'm sorry.' Glad you liked it. :)