Sweet Goodbyes
The light streamed from the window in a waterfall of yellow and warmth bathing the room with a morning glow. She turned around and buried her face in the bare chest of the warm body next to hers, sighting happily when strong arms wrapped themselves around her waist. "Seon-ah, you wont make the morning go away just by ignoring it." Kyungsoo chuckled into her hair. To which she only responded with a muffled "Watch me." and curled tighter into him plus tangling their legs together for good measure. She lifted her head and looked at him with the best pout she could muster “You’re not going anywhere. "
To be honest Kyungsoo found his girlfriend's five year old behavior extremely adorable, but as much as he wanted to stay and make those swollen lips just a little bit more red and puffed, if that was even possible, he had his orders and the ship would sail in less than three hours, so if he wasn't there by then there would be hell to pay later.
So instead he leaned down and covered that damm pout with his lips, so he wouldn't give in to it and regret it later. Kyungsoo kissed her slowly like he had all the time in the world and she parted her lips for him allowing his tongue to roam inside as it pleased. She immediately went limp in his arms and sighed into his mouth when his thumb started rubbing circles in her thigh. The kiss was escalating quickly, so he pulled away, biting her lower lip as he went and opened his eyes to see the annoyed face of his lover.
"What?"
"You're such a fucking tease! You can't kiss me like that and then leave me here all hot and bothered like some sort of one night stand."
"Maybe I like leaving you all hot and bothered “he said with a smirk.
If looks could kill Kyungsoo would be seven feet unnderground right now. I swear if I didn't love you so fucking much you'd be out in the street with half that grin knocked of your face, Seon thought. But instead she just said "Well maybe I'll have to find someone else to finish the job." with the most level and calm voice she could muster. Kyungsoo's face darkened instantly and the next thing she knew he was on top of her, straddling her waist and with her arms pinned underneath her, making her back arc of the bed.
"Sorry, what was that? I couldn't hear you very well." Kyungsoo's warm breath tickled her ear and sent shivers down her spine.
She tried to say something back, she really did, but her mind was refusing to do what it was there for , as he started nibbling her ear and started kissing his way down from her jaw to her neck, then stopped to suck the sensitive skin where her arm meets the shoulder, biting down with enough force to leave a new angry red mark next to last night's fading ones. She couldnt help the moan that escaped her lips and she was squirming and arching even more off the bed by the time he had reached her belly and was giving open mouthed kisses to the area. When he was satisfied with the mess of a woman under him he let her go with a warning: “Don’t say that, ever".
Even after Kyungsoo got off of her and went back to his side of the bed, Seon was having trouble coming back from her sexy-as-fuck-possesive-kyungsoo induced high. After five minutes he was getting worried so he decided to help her out with a soft pinch to her ribs. She snapped out of it and looked to her side to see Kyungsoo propped on an elbow looking down at her with a smirk that seemed to scream I won. He really had won, but she still had some pride left, so she turned around and decided to give him the cold shoulder. Serves him right for being such a smug idiot. A hot ,godlike one at that but whatever, she tought.
"Seon-ah, don't be like that come on we have to get ready".
"Fuck off."
"No, I would rather do that to you, but I'm short on time right now." she could practically hear the smirk spread across his face.
But then there were warm hands wrapping themselves around her waist again, only this time they were pulling her into a sitting position and making her face be centimeters away from his. She let him move her without protest but kept the scowl and the pout on her face.
Seon wasn't made at him per set, she was mad at his job. Being a merchant mariner had been his dream since childhood and she would never ask him to give it up for her, but she still couldn't hide her displeasure when a hurricane warning was issued and he was still at sea, when his routes took him through pirate waters in Singapore or Somalia, or when he called to tell her his run had been extended for a few more weeks. The pay was very good now that he had some years of experience but she still hated how sometimes it took months to see each other with only a few days ,or if they were lucky weeks, in between for themselves. Most of which were spent on a bed doing, well, the things you do in a bed.
As if she had voiced her thoughts out loud Kyungsoo's face contorted into one of sadness and pressed his forehead against hers. "I know this is hard, it always has been, and not once have you left and God you have no idea how much I love you for that and how sorry I am to make you live like this but just hold ona little while longer okay? Soon enough I'll be able to take a landside job and-"
"And I'll have you all to myself." she said and the tears were threatening to run down her cheeks, but she kept them in. She didn't want to ruin their last day together and his last memory of her for the next months. She could drown herself in them later tonight.
"All yours, forever and ever." Kyungsoo had a wide smile as he said that and she couldn't help but laugh .
"Oh my god that was so damm cheesy. I might start vomiting rainbows and fluffy things."
"Way to ruin the mood Seon."
She would have thought he was mad if not for the smile he still had on and the loving stare that made her feel like she was about to combust. He looked right into her eyes and after four seconds she couldn't take it anymore and opted to hide her face in the crook of his neck, inhaling his scent and kissing all the skin she could find all the way up to his jaw as her hands roamed around the expanse of his back and his chest, going down his abdomen and reaching the waistband of his sweatpants, playing with the fabric between her fingers.
She leaned down and started to leave open mouthed kisses in a trail down his chest and small little pecks on every rib. She was just getting to kiss the skin under his belly button, her tongue darting out to lick playfully at the seam of his boxers and with every intention to keep going, when she felt a pair of hands lift her head back up and soft lips meeting hers halfway. It was a rough kiss, with teeth clashing and their tongues intertwined together almost furiously in a fight for who dominates the kiss, but in the end she lets him do as he pleases and revels in the feel of his mouth on hers. When he pulls away her lips hurt and she is sure they will bruise tomorrow. She dosen't mind though.
His breath is ragged and comes out in short pants when he says," You need to stop that or I won't be able to hold back anymore, and I really need to get up and start getting ready so can you pleeease stop testing my self control?" He was almost whining now and she couldn't help the grin that settled on her face.
Seon didn't have time to answer though. Kyungsoo maneuvered her so that he could swiftly place one hand under her knees and another on her back, lifting her up bridal-style. She immediately wrapped her arms around his neck and let herself be carried, laughing at how cliché this all seemed to be. "Yet again my kyungy is so cheesy."
"Shut up you know you like it." Kyungsoo said. And she did. Seon loved the feel of tense arms under her and the security she felt while being in them, she loved how she could bury her face in the crook of his neck and feel the vibrations of his deep voice run down her body when he chuckled at her childish behavior. But there was no way in hell she would ever admit that.
"Yeah yeah whatever. Just take me to the shower my belly is all sticky because of you." Seon said.
"I bet you like that too." Kyungsoo said with a smirk. He got a punch in the shoulder for that one.
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The ship was ready to sail when they finally got to the docks. Their supposed "quick" shower was extended considerably, in part because Seon turned into a damm teenager again who couldn't control her libido and in part because he was about to go a few months without any contact of anything female and he didn't mind having his last memories of Seon be of her pressed between him and the bathroom tiles under the spray of water and her legs around his waist as he kissed her deeply. So he couldn't really give a shit about what the captain would say to him for arriving late because that had been the best shower sex he's had in years.
Around the dock there were a few other sailors saying goodbye to their families or their significant other. And soon they were doing the same too. Seon had been thru this enough times to not start crying her eyes out when he let go of her hand and turned to kiss her goodbye. She had learned over the years that it was better to savor the moment. That instead of ruining the moment by crying she could press her body flush against his, and try to engrave in her mind all the dips and curves of his body and the warm feel of his hands gripping her waist like he didn't want to let go,and she could kiss him deeply ,like they had all the time in the world, without having a wet face stained with mascara. She had learned to stow away these memories for when she was lonley and his voice through the phone wasn't enough.
" I Love you Seon. Don't forget that please. Ever." Kyungsoo said, and after a few moments added: "And don't you dare ruin this by saying it's cheesy because I'll never set foot on this dock again."
"We both know you're bluffing babe. And I love you too Kyungsoo, so much it scares me sometimes. So much that I'm willing to put up with this and much more just to be with you. Don't you forget that."
She got a small peck on her lips and suddenly the warm hands around her waist were leaving and her skin was already missing the contact. He started walking towards the ship and she took the opportunity to give him one last message.
"Oh, and Do Kyungsoo if you dare cheat on me I'll eliminate all possibilities of having heirs from your anatomy." she shouted.
"Love you too!" He was already walking up the boarding ramp by now.
Seon couldn't help but laugh at his stupidly nonchalant attitude and she was glad that the last thing he saw on her face before stepping inside was a smile.
She kept the smile even when he had already boarded and the ship had sailed. She stayed until it became a miniscule dot on the horizon and disappeared. Then the tears started to fall, and this time, she let them.
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To be honest Kyungsoo found his girlfriend's five year old behavior extremely adorable, but as much as he wanted to stay and make those swollen lips just a little bit more red and puffed, if that was even possible, he had his orders and the ship would sail in less than three hours, so if he wasn't there by then there would be hell to pay later.
So instead he leaned down and covered that damm pout with his lips, so he wouldn't give in to it and regret it later. Kyungsoo kissed her slowly like he had all the time in the world and she parted her lips for him allowing his tongue to roam inside as it pleased. She immediately went limp in his arms and sighed into his mouth when his thumb started rubbing circles in her thigh. The kiss was escalating quickly, so he pulled away, biting her lower lip as he went and opened his eyes to see the annoyed face of his lover.
"What?"
"You're such a fucking tease! You can't kiss me like that and then leave me here all hot and bothered like some sort of one night stand."
"Maybe I like leaving you all hot and bothered “he said with a smirk.
If looks could kill Kyungsoo would be seven feet unnderground right now. I swear if I didn't love you so fucking much you'd be out in the street with half that grin knocked of your face, Seon thought. But instead she just said "Well maybe I'll have to find someone else to finish the job." with the most level and calm voice she could muster. Kyungsoo's face darkened instantly and the next thing she knew he was on top of her, straddling her waist and with her arms pinned underneath her, making her back arc of the bed.
"Sorry, what was that? I couldn't hear you very well." Kyungsoo's warm breath tickled her ear and sent shivers down her spine.
She tried to say something back, she really did, but her mind was refusing to do what it was there for , as he started nibbling her ear and started kissing his way down from her jaw to her neck, then stopped to suck the sensitive skin where her arm meets the shoulder, biting down with enough force to leave a new angry red mark next to last night's fading ones. She couldnt help the moan that escaped her lips and she was squirming and arching even more off the bed by the time he had reached her belly and was giving open mouthed kisses to the area. When he was satisfied with the mess of a woman under him he let her go with a warning: “Don’t say that, ever".
Even after Kyungsoo got off of her and went back to his side of the bed, Seon was having trouble coming back from her sexy-as-fuck-possesive-kyungsoo induced high. After five minutes he was getting worried so he decided to help her out with a soft pinch to her ribs. She snapped out of it and looked to her side to see Kyungsoo propped on an elbow looking down at her with a smirk that seemed to scream I won. He really had won, but she still had some pride left, so she turned around and decided to give him the cold shoulder. Serves him right for being such a smug idiot. A hot ,godlike one at that but whatever, she tought.
"Seon-ah, don't be like that come on we have to get ready".
"Fuck off."
"No, I would rather do that to you, but I'm short on time right now." she could practically hear the smirk spread across his face.
But then there were warm hands wrapping themselves around her waist again, only this time they were pulling her into a sitting position and making her face be centimeters away from his. She let him move her without protest but kept the scowl and the pout on her face.
Seon wasn't made at him per set, she was mad at his job. Being a merchant mariner had been his dream since childhood and she would never ask him to give it up for her, but she still couldn't hide her displeasure when a hurricane warning was issued and he was still at sea, when his routes took him through pirate waters in Singapore or Somalia, or when he called to tell her his run had been extended for a few more weeks. The pay was very good now that he had some years of experience but she still hated how sometimes it took months to see each other with only a few days ,or if they were lucky weeks, in between for themselves. Most of which were spent on a bed doing, well, the things you do in a bed.
As if she had voiced her thoughts out loud Kyungsoo's face contorted into one of sadness and pressed his forehead against hers. "I know this is hard, it always has been, and not once have you left and God you have no idea how much I love you for that and how sorry I am to make you live like this but just hold ona little while longer okay? Soon enough I'll be able to take a landside job and-"
"And I'll have you all to myself." she said and the tears were threatening to run down her cheeks, but she kept them in. She didn't want to ruin their last day together and his last memory of her for the next months. She could drown herself in them later tonight.
"All yours, forever and ever." Kyungsoo had a wide smile as he said that and she couldn't help but laugh .
"Oh my god that was so damm cheesy. I might start vomiting rainbows and fluffy things."
"Way to ruin the mood Seon."
She would have thought he was mad if not for the smile he still had on and the loving stare that made her feel like she was about to combust. He looked right into her eyes and after four seconds she couldn't take it anymore and opted to hide her face in the crook of his neck, inhaling his scent and kissing all the skin she could find all the way up to his jaw as her hands roamed around the expanse of his back and his chest, going down his abdomen and reaching the waistband of his sweatpants, playing with the fabric between her fingers.
She leaned down and started to leave open mouthed kisses in a trail down his chest and small little pecks on every rib. She was just getting to kiss the skin under his belly button, her tongue darting out to lick playfully at the seam of his boxers and with every intention to keep going, when she felt a pair of hands lift her head back up and soft lips meeting hers halfway. It was a rough kiss, with teeth clashing and their tongues intertwined together almost furiously in a fight for who dominates the kiss, but in the end she lets him do as he pleases and revels in the feel of his mouth on hers. When he pulls away her lips hurt and she is sure they will bruise tomorrow. She dosen't mind though.
His breath is ragged and comes out in short pants when he says," You need to stop that or I won't be able to hold back anymore, and I really need to get up and start getting ready so can you pleeease stop testing my self control?" He was almost whining now and she couldn't help the grin that settled on her face.
Seon didn't have time to answer though. Kyungsoo maneuvered her so that he could swiftly place one hand under her knees and another on her back, lifting her up bridal-style. She immediately wrapped her arms around his neck and let herself be carried, laughing at how cliché this all seemed to be. "Yet again my kyungy is so cheesy."
"Shut up you know you like it." Kyungsoo said. And she did. Seon loved the feel of tense arms under her and the security she felt while being in them, she loved how she could bury her face in the crook of his neck and feel the vibrations of his deep voice run down her body when he chuckled at her childish behavior. But there was no way in hell she would ever admit that.
"Yeah yeah whatever. Just take me to the shower my belly is all sticky because of you." Seon said.
"I bet you like that too." Kyungsoo said with a smirk. He got a punch in the shoulder for that one.
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The ship was ready to sail when they finally got to the docks. Their supposed "quick" shower was extended considerably, in part because Seon turned into a damm teenager again who couldn't control her libido and in part because he was about to go a few months without any contact of anything female and he didn't mind having his last memories of Seon be of her pressed between him and the bathroom tiles under the spray of water and her legs around his waist as he kissed her deeply. So he couldn't really give a shit about what the captain would say to him for arriving late because that had been the best shower sex he's had in years.
Around the dock there were a few other sailors saying goodbye to their families or their significant other. And soon they were doing the same too. Seon had been thru this enough times to not start crying her eyes out when he let go of her hand and turned to kiss her goodbye. She had learned over the years that it was better to savor the moment. That instead of ruining the moment by crying she could press her body flush against his, and try to engrave in her mind all the dips and curves of his body and the warm feel of his hands gripping her waist like he didn't want to let go,and she could kiss him deeply ,like they had all the time in the world, without having a wet face stained with mascara. She had learned to stow away these memories for when she was lonley and his voice through the phone wasn't enough.
" I Love you Seon. Don't forget that please. Ever." Kyungsoo said, and after a few moments added: "And don't you dare ruin this by saying it's cheesy because I'll never set foot on this dock again."
"We both know you're bluffing babe. And I love you too Kyungsoo, so much it scares me sometimes. So much that I'm willing to put up with this and much more just to be with you. Don't you forget that."
She got a small peck on her lips and suddenly the warm hands around her waist were leaving and her skin was already missing the contact. He started walking towards the ship and she took the opportunity to give him one last message.
"Oh, and Do Kyungsoo if you dare cheat on me I'll eliminate all possibilities of having heirs from your anatomy." she shouted.
"Love you too!" He was already walking up the boarding ramp by now.
Seon couldn't help but laugh at his stupidly nonchalant attitude and she was glad that the last thing he saw on her face before stepping inside was a smile.
She kept the smile even when he had already boarded and the ship had sailed. She stayed until it became a miniscule dot on the horizon and disappeared. Then the tears started to fall, and this time, she let them.
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