fall on your knees.....
Only Casey could make me love Christmas music! hah!
I am SO excited for next week. This is my outlet for all my emotions and energies that are homeless. I said once that being with Michael was like coming home, and I'm grateful he has led me to something else that would, in parts, take that place and cultivate that feeling.
haha....thinking about Christmas music has me remembering when Scotty and I sang drunken kareoke last summer. We came back to his apartment and set up the machine and the video camera to tape ourselves. Then we thought it would be a good idea to do some Christmas music. LOL...oh man, that was fun. Even funnier watching it sober the next day! "Maaaccccarroni and Cheeseeeee!"
I think our anniversary is coming up. He always remembers and I always forget. But I believe it was June...I want to say 14th or 15th. This makes...shit...6 or 7 years? I remember the first time I felt like we really clicked- Justin had gone away on vacation and Scotty and I were on the phone together. We had this marathon phone conversation of like 10 hours straight- laughing, making fun of Britney Spears and just being silly. After that we got closer and closer until Justin had disappeared and it was just he and I. Together we were an undeniable force- turning heads and stirring up drama wherever we went. And in our 'old' age, we still have it, though we are a bit more subdued now. Though- there are days! haha
When I look back to the history of my social life, I usually equate coming into myself with Pittsburgh and Rea. Scotty was in Pittsburgh then, too, but we didn't really socialize with each other at the time. But looking back, I have to say that he has played a big part in my development. And he still is a sizeable influence.
I have said that I define myself through my relationships. And I am very, very proud of the ones I have chosen to map my life, my memories, and my heart.
"No matter where we may be
No matter how we may change
One thing you promised me:
You would remember me...
Remember me....."
I am SO excited for next week. This is my outlet for all my emotions and energies that are homeless. I said once that being with Michael was like coming home, and I'm grateful he has led me to something else that would, in parts, take that place and cultivate that feeling.
haha....thinking about Christmas music has me remembering when Scotty and I sang drunken kareoke last summer. We came back to his apartment and set up the machine and the video camera to tape ourselves. Then we thought it would be a good idea to do some Christmas music. LOL...oh man, that was fun. Even funnier watching it sober the next day! "Maaaccccarroni and Cheeseeeee!"
I think our anniversary is coming up. He always remembers and I always forget. But I believe it was June...I want to say 14th or 15th. This makes...shit...6 or 7 years? I remember the first time I felt like we really clicked- Justin had gone away on vacation and Scotty and I were on the phone together. We had this marathon phone conversation of like 10 hours straight- laughing, making fun of Britney Spears and just being silly. After that we got closer and closer until Justin had disappeared and it was just he and I. Together we were an undeniable force- turning heads and stirring up drama wherever we went. And in our 'old' age, we still have it, though we are a bit more subdued now. Though- there are days! haha
When I look back to the history of my social life, I usually equate coming into myself with Pittsburgh and Rea. Scotty was in Pittsburgh then, too, but we didn't really socialize with each other at the time. But looking back, I have to say that he has played a big part in my development. And he still is a sizeable influence.
I have said that I define myself through my relationships. And I am very, very proud of the ones I have chosen to map my life, my memories, and my heart.
"No matter where we may be
No matter how we may change
One thing you promised me:
You would remember me...
Remember me....."