Catcher in the Rye
I just finished my essay for english, and I have to say, I'm not feeling so hot about it. You may or may not have noticed the time, but it wasn't all that fun to do.
After writing it though, I was fairly interesting to go into the character of Holden. I really like him and hate him at the same time-I feel like I see too much of me in him. He tries to be mature, but only really gets it right in the end, when he puts on that red hunting hat and is really himself. The thing is, that hat is a different thing for everyone, so how are you supposed to know when you've finally picked the right one? Plus, he always seems to do the wrong thing when he interacts with people. Sometimes I feel like I have the worst social skills ever, and I never really take any risks, which could be bad (but it could be good too.) Either way, it was a fairly interesting book.
The play is over now, and it had some different effects that I kinda talked about with my mom in between writing my essay. I got the whole "You're human, you can't possibly be 110% for everyone, all the time" speech again. I hate that mindset-that you can't do everything you set out to do. I think if everyone felt they could do everything they tried, we'd get a lot more done, or at least have a much happier world to live in. I feel like I'm letting people (or at least myself/Mr. Perry) down by screwing up my essay, and i don't want that to extend to other things that I try to do. Maybe, I'm being to hard on myself, but i think I'm capable of more than that.
On a lighter note, the play was overall a good experience, I think. The cast party was rather fun, for when I was there (I actually won Suck and Blow! interesting game...I'm probably going to get sick...) and I think Courtney C. was pretty proud of all of us. I probably won't be doing anything drama-y for a while now...some sound I guess, but a bunch of the focus now is gonna go back to fencing. I really really need to do well at this one-I know i say that everytime before I leave, but it seems like the pressure builds each time. I think about it now, and I don't know how I got third in Atlanta. Wait, no. That is the exact opposite of the mindset Nat wants me to have. Except, I don't know how she expects me to get on strip "like I own the place." I'm not the kind of person who feels like they can win simply because they will it to happen-it's too much like faith, and for goodness knows why, I can't get a handle on that either. This is what I really need though I guess. I never got enough difficulty before, so now I have to deal with it. It kinda makes sense in a way. Oh well. The world keeps spinning.
I hope I don't get sick...
But to end, Thank You to everyone in the Drama for a good time! These last few months would've been much less interesting without you guys.
~Peace
After writing it though, I was fairly interesting to go into the character of Holden. I really like him and hate him at the same time-I feel like I see too much of me in him. He tries to be mature, but only really gets it right in the end, when he puts on that red hunting hat and is really himself. The thing is, that hat is a different thing for everyone, so how are you supposed to know when you've finally picked the right one? Plus, he always seems to do the wrong thing when he interacts with people. Sometimes I feel like I have the worst social skills ever, and I never really take any risks, which could be bad (but it could be good too.) Either way, it was a fairly interesting book.
The play is over now, and it had some different effects that I kinda talked about with my mom in between writing my essay. I got the whole "You're human, you can't possibly be 110% for everyone, all the time" speech again. I hate that mindset-that you can't do everything you set out to do. I think if everyone felt they could do everything they tried, we'd get a lot more done, or at least have a much happier world to live in. I feel like I'm letting people (or at least myself/Mr. Perry) down by screwing up my essay, and i don't want that to extend to other things that I try to do. Maybe, I'm being to hard on myself, but i think I'm capable of more than that.
On a lighter note, the play was overall a good experience, I think. The cast party was rather fun, for when I was there (I actually won Suck and Blow! interesting game...I'm probably going to get sick...) and I think Courtney C. was pretty proud of all of us. I probably won't be doing anything drama-y for a while now...some sound I guess, but a bunch of the focus now is gonna go back to fencing. I really really need to do well at this one-I know i say that everytime before I leave, but it seems like the pressure builds each time. I think about it now, and I don't know how I got third in Atlanta. Wait, no. That is the exact opposite of the mindset Nat wants me to have. Except, I don't know how she expects me to get on strip "like I own the place." I'm not the kind of person who feels like they can win simply because they will it to happen-it's too much like faith, and for goodness knows why, I can't get a handle on that either. This is what I really need though I guess. I never got enough difficulty before, so now I have to deal with it. It kinda makes sense in a way. Oh well. The world keeps spinning.
I hope I don't get sick...
But to end, Thank You to everyone in the Drama for a good time! These last few months would've been much less interesting without you guys.
~Peace