Dread
The roomates are coming! I am quite scared! The peace i have found with just Angeline and I here and our opposite schedules has made me long for my own place again. Saturday i move into my new apartment, but i still dread that the roomates will arrive before hand and my privacy will be disrupted.
The only way i can handle the workload i put upon myself is to have control of my environment and be able to prioritize my own time. When other people are in my space i feel obligated as a friend and a social being to at least acknoledge their presence, and more often to entertain them. Don't get me wrong, I really like to entertain. I just have to be able to call the shots and say this is when the entertainment begins, and this is when it ends.
This is such an unattractive part of my personality. I always have to be in control. I am not so controlling that i try to tell people where to be or what to do, just i know where i need to be and what i need to do. So i have to control my own time. Those that want to spend time with me have to learn to lean to my schedule. I have a hard time bending to fit other people in. I think this is one of the things that keeps me from having a girlfriend.
Got to free up some time and some attention. Gotta spread the love.
The only way i can handle the workload i put upon myself is to have control of my environment and be able to prioritize my own time. When other people are in my space i feel obligated as a friend and a social being to at least acknoledge their presence, and more often to entertain them. Don't get me wrong, I really like to entertain. I just have to be able to call the shots and say this is when the entertainment begins, and this is when it ends.
This is such an unattractive part of my personality. I always have to be in control. I am not so controlling that i try to tell people where to be or what to do, just i know where i need to be and what i need to do. So i have to control my own time. Those that want to spend time with me have to learn to lean to my schedule. I have a hard time bending to fit other people in. I think this is one of the things that keeps me from having a girlfriend.
Got to free up some time and some attention. Gotta spread the love.