I want...

[violetemeralds]

Ok, so I should *really* be doing some chemistry studying right now, but for some reason I can't seem to get myself to focus on it. I've just been so distracted by everything lately, but can't finish any of it. So, I'm now going to share a collection of thoughts.

I want to start finishing things.

I've had a sudden bout of creativity. I began writing, wrote the scenes I was looking most forward to writing out, and then left it with nothing in between to connect them.

I've begun several sketches only to immediately scribble them out afterwards.

I want to be a nicer person, one who is negatively affected by less and who says more nice things.

I want to be smarter. I want to be able to give back to other people for all the time and effort they've put into me.

I want to get to know more of my friends a little better, and meet new people.

I want to be more outgoing. One of those people who is not afraid to talk to their seat partner on an hour-long bus ride.

I don't want to be so selt-conscious.

I want to learn to bake, to read more, to purchase a random musical instrument and learn to play it.

I want to go to BC. To Paris. To Tokyo and Hong Kong, London and Dublin, Cairo and  Amsterdam.

I want to meet someone who will go to all these places with me.

I want to be prettier, thinner; the kind of girl guys want to like now, and not several years later when they want to settle down.

But I also want to beat Crisis Core, and finally get Dragon Force on Expert.

I want to be more social, more involved in things.

I don't want to always shy away from people who might be interested in me.

The next time it rains, I want to go for a long walk without an umbrella.

The next time it snows, I want to build a snowman and make snow angels.

I want to try karaoke.

I don't want to do any more chemistry or calculus.

I want to be a happier person, both inside and out.

I want to learn another language or two.

I want to study something more than just science, without ever giving science up.

I want to be finished school.

But, at the same time, I don't want school to finish.

I want to move frequently.

I want to have enough money and time to do these things.

With some to spare; I want to be able to give some to people who need it more than I do.

I want to live my life a little less passively.

... I want this to start now.