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I’ve just realized that I need to have a whole other journal entry describing my relationship with Bill ---
Briefly, Bill is my brother, but more than a brother, never a lover, but there is intense love and respect, if not soul mates, then we are cut from the same cloth in so many ways. In an alternate universe we got together and had a passionate, glorious, physically and mentally exhilarating, mutually destructive relationship that ended in a double murder/double suicide.
It may very well have happened if the Lord did not arrange for Bill to meet his future wife three months previously.
I did make a hard play for him, of course. He rightfully chose the woman that is now his wife. I backed off, I hope graciously but definitely respectfully. I married another of the group of friends and we were both glad that God has much better plans for us than what we could ever come up with.
God chose mates for us that are much calmer, more stable, more level headed than we are. Jen is happy that I watch “South Park” with Bill and Randy is happy that he can go see chick flicks with Jen. Like so many ways that God works, well, its so weird but it works so well.
I struggle to define our relationship because it is so precious, wonderful and mysterious. Bill simply calls it, “Amber.”
I’ve just realized that I need to have a whole other journal entry describing my relationship with Bill ---
Briefly, Bill is my brother, but more than a brother, never a lover, but there is intense love and respect, if not soul mates, then we are cut from the same cloth in so many ways. In an alternate universe we got together and had a passionate, glorious, physically and mentally exhilarating, mutually destructive relationship that ended in a double murder/double suicide.
It may very well have happened if the Lord did not arrange for Bill to meet his future wife three months previously.
I did make a hard play for him, of course. He rightfully chose the woman that is now his wife. I backed off, I hope graciously but definitely respectfully. I married another of the group of friends and we were both glad that God has much better plans for us than what we could ever come up with.
God chose mates for us that are much calmer, more stable, more level headed than we are. Jen is happy that I watch “South Park” with Bill and Randy is happy that he can go see chick flicks with Jen. Like so many ways that God works, well, its so weird but it works so well.
I struggle to define our relationship because it is so precious, wonderful and mysterious. Bill simply calls it, “Amber.”