My birthday! :O

[violet_cure]

This one was so busy with worrying about everyone that she forgot to have a party for her birthday! She will have to make some chocolate for everyone.

Please accept this one's apologies for forgetting to get presents for all of you. She will make it up to you all with real presents on Sweetest Day. Till then she hopes chocolates and hugs will

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[violet_cure]

The minifemme is projecting a lot of emotions right now, and not all of them positive. A lot of underlying feelings of fear and rejection are there.

"This one is not worried about many things." Cureall gives Auspex a box of goodies and cuddles into Auspex side for attention. "This one has not heard from Big Brother Perceptor in a while. He is home, but Wheeljack or one of the twins is always with him. With Ratchet not home yet, this one is worried about how they are all doing, but she is afraid to interrupt them being a family."

"This one worries about whether or not she should leave this reality. The person who has needed her does not need her anymore." Cureall is so filled with fear and anxiety over the possibilty that she is not needed or wanted that it almost chokes her. Almost to the point where she thinks existance wants her to stop being there.

She doesn't have the energy to say this though or the wish to bring this upon Auspex though. But oh how she wants to get it out, and oh how she wants to have it confirmed that those she needs and wants still want her, and damn maturity and sanity to the Pit.

[primus_seeress]

*Auspex blinks at the box for a moment, glancing at Cureall with a mildly scolding, but appreciative look. She knows it's useless to argue - she recalls Cureall's last birthday. (celebrating every human year? That seems so frequent - years go by so quickly...)* Thank you, Cureall. You are so very generous. *she wraps her arm around her friend as she leans against her side, listening attentively as she explains*

*She frowns. Again, she wishes she knew more details of Cureall's past, and what makes her so fearful of becoming unwanted, or unecessary... what did her sisters and her peers do, that so obviously encouraged this sort of worry in her?*

*She turns slightly, to give her friend a reassuring hug* Cureall. No one ever stops needing someone; not like that. Yes, he now has the missing pieces of his spark with him again, but those wounds were there even before you became close. You helped him through a very painful time. Simply because the pain is mending, doesn't mean you've stopped being important to him. And... it's been so hectic lately, for all of them; I don't think anyone's seen as much of each other as they'd like. But try to be patient, and don't try to tell yourself that you're not wanted. That will not help, and it is not true.

[violet_cure]

Cureall cuddles close to Aupex and rests her head on the femme's white chest. She seems almost torn for a moment. Auspex is always honest and Cureall always believes what the priestess tells her (until she gets distracted by something negative she even feels better about herself) but Auspex has the insight of Primus in her. Primus can't really hate one of his children can he?

Still the minibot purrs softly and smiles. "If you say it is so, it must be true."

[primus_seeress]

*She rubs Cureall's helm soothingly, sensing the conflict she's experiencing* What I say is true, but it is difficult for you to believe it. You have such a deeply ingrained perception of yourself to be of no worth, of no use... I wish I knew why. It's not true, it's never true. You're a talented healer, and a compassionate person, very sincere, charming, and enthusiastic. Those who wish to deny you friendship are foolish. I pray that you keep sight of that, for your own peace of mind. You worry so much. *She peers down at her, with a concerned frown*