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So today was interesting to say the least. I got pissed off and put my 2 weeks in at my lovely job. At first I felt great after I did it, now i'm kind of rethinking the whole thing, but theres no backing out now since I basically told my boss what I really thought of our gm. And they're pretty much best friends, so this should be interesting. I was supposed to go in tomorrow and have a meeting with the gm but I'm not going. Oh well. Doing things based on emotionally charged thoughts is very intense and afterwards when you've calmed down its like whoa. But if you look at it from an overall perspective, i'm pretty stupid for being there this long. I basically make what a teenager would be making and i'm trying to get myself out of debt and its not going to work staying at that place. I really need to get motivated to actually do something with my life instead of just waiting to die, which i'm basically doing. I was so stressed out earlier and just thought about od'ing but that would be ridiculous. I need to get my head and my heart straight so I can finally be free of certain things so maybe this is a step in the right direction. I hope to hell so. I'm really against anything to do with change so this is going to be a huge test for me.
If this was just about one thing that happened today then I would thing I really over reacted but the past few months and even last year its like this shit has just been building up. So its like I was pushed over the edge and i snapped.
If this was just about one thing that happened today then I would thing I really over reacted but the past few months and even last year its like this shit has just been building up. So its like I was pushed over the edge and i snapped.