a smile in the morning
"Monks, if people speak badly of me or badly of the teaching or of our order of monks, you should not because of their ill will hold any thoughts of enmity toward them or any spite, nor even be at all worried. For if you are angry or displeased with them it will hurt you more than them. Indeed, if you were to feel angry or displeased, would you then be able to know what is well intended and what is badly intended from others?"
"No, we would not be able to know this."
"So, if others speak ill of me or the teaching or the order, you should with goodwill unravel the untruth of what they have said and make it all clear to them, saying, 'For this reason, that is false; for this reason, that is untrue; these things are not within us."
-Digha Nikaya
Buddhism wisdom always make me smile,I just received another rejection from a job...they say that my skills are not what they are searching for...okay...I am too good for you then;p
I feel really pissed off,but what can I do?
I will just write new applications to other entreprises that's all I can do...
I have begun to write a sort of sketch of what kind of entreprise I would like to create:)
It's rather scary to me, you know I am not sure if I am strong enough and responsible enough to do such a demanding thing!
It means if I create this shop of mine, that I will have to be everything: the shop assistant,the secretary,the teacher for the art class;),the accountant:/ less less funny,the secretary,etc etc...
so I am very scared
My sister wanted to create her shop too with her husband but at the moment they have put this idea aside...
I want to be pregnant next year and I am not sure if I'll have enough time to deal with all these things
I can't choose
or if I have to choose then I choose being a mom and having a dull job,but I cannot find this fucking dull job!!!!grrrrrr
piss off!!!
I am very very nervous,tense,angry and all at the moment!
I am also very busy
I was thinking yesterday that if I go in this creation of my shop I won't be a regular penpal
I already some of you won't mind and would understand:)
I'll choose not too demanding penpals
Because when I love a soul,I love a soul...they have to trust this love, because I think sometimes people think wrong that I have many people around me,too many friends etc
I am very grateful to receive the Love I receive,I am aware of it and I give back as much as I can,when I can:)
But I never forget anybody
I am not into collection
I think that when a true and unique friendship bond is created nothing can break it with patience time and love we can show we really care
I just want to say this,because sometimes some of you just misunderstand me or my silence,my being busy etc,not answering emails etc or taking time with letters
I trully Love you:)
and I hope you know who you are and that you have a true place in my heart:)
Because or else I won't be able to deal with your insecurity if you cannot trust my feelings for you:)
I used to be so demanding and boring myself,always worried if I was loved or not...I have chosen to trust in my friends:)
I have chosen to let them then time to answer letters and not interprete wrongly most of the time they late answers etc,because it's silly
I have somewhat changed, I feel quieter and I trust more
I believe I can be loved no matter how many miles away you are;)
This is beautiful and amazing
lots of sparkling little stars***
"No, we would not be able to know this."
"So, if others speak ill of me or the teaching or the order, you should with goodwill unravel the untruth of what they have said and make it all clear to them, saying, 'For this reason, that is false; for this reason, that is untrue; these things are not within us."
-Digha Nikaya
Buddhism wisdom always make me smile,I just received another rejection from a job...they say that my skills are not what they are searching for...okay...I am too good for you then;p
I feel really pissed off,but what can I do?
I will just write new applications to other entreprises that's all I can do...
I have begun to write a sort of sketch of what kind of entreprise I would like to create:)
It's rather scary to me, you know I am not sure if I am strong enough and responsible enough to do such a demanding thing!
It means if I create this shop of mine, that I will have to be everything: the shop assistant,the secretary,the teacher for the art class;),the accountant:/ less less funny,the secretary,etc etc...
so I am very scared
My sister wanted to create her shop too with her husband but at the moment they have put this idea aside...
I want to be pregnant next year and I am not sure if I'll have enough time to deal with all these things
I can't choose
or if I have to choose then I choose being a mom and having a dull job,but I cannot find this fucking dull job!!!!grrrrrr
piss off!!!
I am very very nervous,tense,angry and all at the moment!
I am also very busy
I was thinking yesterday that if I go in this creation of my shop I won't be a regular penpal
I already some of you won't mind and would understand:)
I'll choose not too demanding penpals
Because when I love a soul,I love a soul...they have to trust this love, because I think sometimes people think wrong that I have many people around me,too many friends etc
I am very grateful to receive the Love I receive,I am aware of it and I give back as much as I can,when I can:)
But I never forget anybody
I am not into collection
I think that when a true and unique friendship bond is created nothing can break it with patience time and love we can show we really care
I just want to say this,because sometimes some of you just misunderstand me or my silence,my being busy etc,not answering emails etc or taking time with letters
I trully Love you:)
and I hope you know who you are and that you have a true place in my heart:)
Because or else I won't be able to deal with your insecurity if you cannot trust my feelings for you:)
I used to be so demanding and boring myself,always worried if I was loved or not...I have chosen to trust in my friends:)
I have chosen to let them then time to answer letters and not interprete wrongly most of the time they late answers etc,because it's silly
I have somewhat changed, I feel quieter and I trust more
I believe I can be loved no matter how many miles away you are;)
This is beautiful and amazing
lots of sparkling little stars***