I strongly suspect i don't have more cigarettes.
A friend of mine,Nick,made a drawing of me that i really like.
It made me more pretty than i could ever be,what's there not to like???Lol!!!!
I came to post it ,but once i start reading some post from friends, i feel sad because i missed being here and write what's inside my stupid head.
I miss having the right amount of time to be present for the people that matter,extraordinay people whom i love with all my heart and soul.
Friends,true or not,that make me laugh,think and live.
For the first time in my life,the future is something uncertain in a scary way,or maybe this is just a phase that'll fade away....
I wish so.
This afternoon i was cleaning some stuff when an old book fell and some pictures fell too on the floor.
They were pictures of me when i was about 2,then about 16 and 19..
I watched closely at the girl in those pictures,and i couldn't shake a sad feeling.
I remembered all the crazy late nights ,my girlfriends and i dancing and kissing.
The music was always too loud and the dresses too short i guess.
There were nights in which i felt like i was a goddess,that's the power a truly friendship could have on you.
Was that or was the too many drinks ?
Nevermind .
Like i was happy back then and of course didn't realize so.
Sometime i listen to stupid songs just because.
Just because they reminds me of a certain period and of a certain person.
When it's all been said and all 's been done,it's hard to make people believe you still think about them and you still love them.
Christhina Ricci is gorgeous as the angel in that Moby Music video "Natural Blues".
She is beautiful and full of both grace and pity as the angels should be.
Or at least ,that 's like the angels are in my mind.
Little pretty things who walk the earth watching us ,loving us for all the things we could do,
and afraid of us for all the things that we actually do.
How should an angel see us?
Curious creatures who write magnificent songs,capable of create immaculate pieces of art and smile in the sun,
or sad codard ants who are able to do such evil and keep making the same mistakes all over again,without care and without heart?
I look around me people getting on with their lifes,while seems to me that the only thing that i actually do is watching others...
I look and i see an old lady who smiles at me ,i can't stop thinking how beautiful she is,with her perfectly combed white hair and her pastel hat.
The old man who sleeps on the street ask me a cigarette,like he always does evey sunday when he knows i'm gonna say yes.His little dog always with him.
The guy with a white t-shirt and puma trainers.he's in his twenties and he took too much cocaine and speed and his eyes are just a big black hole,easily i could fall into them .
A gay couple read TheSun behind me,the one with dark hair is english while the other is american ,and they both are in perfect body shape,i can smell the Hugo Boss parfume they both use,which i love oh so much.
There is a pretty girl sitting in front of me on the tube,she's thinking at the boob's job she's gonna have next week,she cares only about fast sex and easy free-rides.
Not to worries when sugar daddies are always ready for candies.
The blonde cute toddler can't stop looking at me,i wonder what he sees in me and through me.
People,all around me....
Even if i'llprobably never see them again,never know their names,
I'm deeply and truly in love with every single one of them.
Everytime i look around i fall in love.
I wish they could see how beautiful they are,
with their sadness and tics and peaceful moves.
With the ordinary ties or extravagant hairstyle.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaanyway..............
Even if i never even seen a single episode of the ultra-acclamated TV series "Lost", i'm a huge fan of David LaChapelle.
What the first one has got to do with the second one?
Well,the Uk showed a memorable promotional video for Lost,which had the characters paired up as dancing partners.
The trailer was directed and presumably written by David laChapelle for Channel 4,and was one of the only promotional trailers to be specifically shot with the cast,as opposed to simply using pilot episode clips.
Like every artistic work of LaChapelle,the video is simply spectacular and dense of iconic symbols,and since i know so many people watch the show,maybe soemone will enjoy this trailer,which u can see here:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=pkxM9FkO3ys
Also,since we are here,or at least i still am,this is a video shot in New York for the David LaChapelle show,in which you could see how much talent this photographer and director has ...
http://youtube.com/watch?v=3Z3UyH2U5qk
All of us have a secret,
One of us is a hero,
One of us is a fraud,
One of us is a junkie,
One of us is a cop,
One of us is a saint,
One of us is a sinner,
One of us is a martyr,
One of us is a murderer,
All of us are guilty,
All of us are lost.,