bleeding for this

[violentlyhappy_]

this city is full with me
contemptuos actions
staring out windows
knowing or perhaps only hoping
that there is more
there is better
i have thrown myself
all over this city
if you know what to look for
my pieces are everywhere
i'm like a scavenger hunt
only i'm not sure where it leads
i have tried to escape this city
but it seems a black hole
perhaps i am weak
i am stuck
maybe my purpose yet unmet
this city has seen and made me
bare
it's rapes me with vulnerability
loves me with rain
whispers sevrets just for me
tells me i'm beautiful
rips away my life
shows me i'm worthless
this city holds me at bay
pushes me over the edge
i am prey
to this
city

and i don't know why.. but when everything starts to fall apart i just want to talk to you