Once and forever, Callous
I wonder why I don't write more of my day to day mundane shit, but I think I am and no one realizes it. Maybe even I don't. It's just the only way I know how to write it right now. The only way I can handle... maybe, just maybe...
Protecting me... from me...
CALLOUS
On the tip of your tongue
in your suicidal silence
Questions for every answer I ever gave you
I never had any intention, never meant to be this
This, your lethal injection
A toxic needle tip
Just one dose too many
Inciting insanity
I watch you break
Disintegrate
Before mine eyes
As you slip away I ponder
Where did I go wrong?
Both poison and antidote
The equilibrium broke
How callous I must be
That my heart isn't breaking
That I'm just thinking
Aching
For a fix
Waiting for the big finish
Numbly waitin
With places to be
On the tip of your tongue
In your suicidal silence
My name
July 9, 09
ONCE
rain stings my finger tips
like the burn of your lips
feeling my heartbeat between my hips
i release a breath with which
to kiss your soul
away
those last bits of the ethereal, ephemeral you
still clinging to my ever present
avenue of destiny
no part of me has
ever been more clear
down this road of mine you stare
longing left, sole despair
i have left you there
your spark died forever ago
cinder black,charred your heart
attacks
still trying to bring it back
to put flame to kindling
just no reckoning
just no fuel remaining
rain stings my fingertips
like the once flame of your lips
against my skin
feeling the pulse within
pounding between my hips
all of me
now
free and clear
June 28, 09
Protecting me... from me...
CALLOUS
On the tip of your tongue
in your suicidal silence
Questions for every answer I ever gave you
I never had any intention, never meant to be this
This, your lethal injection
A toxic needle tip
Just one dose too many
Inciting insanity
I watch you break
Disintegrate
Before mine eyes
As you slip away I ponder
Where did I go wrong?
Both poison and antidote
The equilibrium broke
How callous I must be
That my heart isn't breaking
That I'm just thinking
Aching
For a fix
Waiting for the big finish
Numbly waitin
With places to be
On the tip of your tongue
In your suicidal silence
My name
July 9, 09
ONCE
rain stings my finger tips
like the burn of your lips
feeling my heartbeat between my hips
i release a breath with which
to kiss your soul
away
those last bits of the ethereal, ephemeral you
still clinging to my ever present
avenue of destiny
no part of me has
ever been more clear
down this road of mine you stare
longing left, sole despair
i have left you there
your spark died forever ago
cinder black,charred your heart
attacks
still trying to bring it back
to put flame to kindling
just no reckoning
just no fuel remaining
rain stings my fingertips
like the once flame of your lips
against my skin
feeling the pulse within
pounding between my hips
all of me
now
free and clear
June 28, 09