what's going on in the world of Kim???
so....i saw evan for a little today. we watched a video about the marines. i wanted to cry....but i didn't want to get upset about it so i laughed and chuckled instead. all i could think about was being away from him. i can barely stand to spend a day without him. how am i gonna surrive through 3 months being apart? (and thats just for basic) i cry a lot now. any time i see those marine stickers on the back of some peoples cars cuz they are a marine or they know one, those yellow ribbions, the news when they talk about the death toll, or anything else like that. maybe i just need to get it all out now....maybe if i cry all the time now....i can be stronger later on...stronger when i need to be. i'm so afraid of lossing him. i dont want to be without him. and then i am upset about other things and i dont what to do. all i do is cry.....its the only thing i can think of. i dont know what to do....i feel...ummmm..god.....i dont know. i'm scared and worried about so many things....(evan, our future, etc.) all i do is cry.