hey
well, let me tell you about my day. it started off good. i went over to evans and helped him with his spanish homework and then we ran some erands. we went to chiles for lunch and then i went home and got my wallet and some tennis shoes. then we went to the park and walked some trails. at one point i did something and i hurt my foot (ankel...accutually) and then my knee. i was in pain but i kept walking for him. we were on our way down a trail when he stopped and had me look out at the skyline. despite my fear of heights...i thought it was beautiful. we sat and looked out at the skyline. i didnt want that moment to end.....but saddly it did. we countinued down the trail and the pain got worse so evan gave me a piggy back ride for a while. when we stopped for a rest i felt horrible because he was really out of breath and he looked really tired. so i walked the rest of the way. it hurt really bad but i didnt want to make him really tired again so i just delt with the pain. then i went home and ate dinner then i went to our angel reunion. jose was there and we ate pizza, played a game called apples to apples, and we did our reviling dance. it was great to see the GA who couldn't come to the retreat. it was fun and awesome. then some of us saw the ring 2. then i came home and was basicly called fat and stupid by my dad.
Perfect--Simple Plan
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm all right
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
i'm never going to be good enough for him. maybe he would be happy if i died. maybe thats what he wants. he only seems to push me closer to the edge everyday. he doesn't want me to live my dreams and do what i want to do with my life. it's like what i want means nothing.
Suicude--The Damned
There's too much confusion for a young man to take
Look at my eyes that ain't easy to fake
I've got no spirit left to break
I'll slash my wrists ain't no mistake
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you
I've lost track of logical thinking
I'm sitting in a room not even blinking
Into the darkness I am sinking
About to hear the angels singing
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you
My mind's going round faster and faster
The scripts been read and there's no disaster
I was in with a chance but I'm a b******
I'm lying awake in a hospital plaster
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you
Perfect--Simple Plan
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm all right
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
i'm never going to be good enough for him. maybe he would be happy if i died. maybe thats what he wants. he only seems to push me closer to the edge everyday. he doesn't want me to live my dreams and do what i want to do with my life. it's like what i want means nothing.
Suicude--The Damned
There's too much confusion for a young man to take
Look at my eyes that ain't easy to fake
I've got no spirit left to break
I'll slash my wrists ain't no mistake
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you
I've lost track of logical thinking
I'm sitting in a room not even blinking
Into the darkness I am sinking
About to hear the angels singing
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you
My mind's going round faster and faster
The scripts been read and there's no disaster
I was in with a chance but I'm a b******
I'm lying awake in a hospital plaster
Help me
Oh help me
Help me
Oh help me
Suicide suicide it's happening again
Suicide suicide I'm losing my brain
Suicide suicide what can I do
I'm gonna kill myself because of you