.life is good.
well, the lil guy went back to his mommy today, reluctantly. bless his heart, he didn't want t-ball practice to end. (he knew when it ended, he was going back to her) he moped off the field, head down, arms looooow at his side and the saddest lil face. god we're gonna miss him. i pray for his sake that the transition will be easy for him. but i know with the way his mother is, it won't be.
it hurt me more than i ever expected when justin left. i keep hearing his voice and the pitter-patter of his lil piggies (toes... i like to "get his piggies" hehe. a game we play.) across the kitchen floor. i felt so empty after practice. i was disoriented, couldn't think straight. it hurt me and jeff both, but we both refused to cry. unfortunately, jeff's mom couldn't choke back the tears. :/ poor mom. (that's what i call his mom. in fact, jeff calls my mom "mom" too. hehe. isn't that cute!??)
did i mention that justin has gotten to where he tells me he loves me? and that i'm in his heart? he's the sweetest thing. :) what's even better is that jeff is as tickled about it as i am. *extremely big smile* that's a BIG change from back in march when jeff told me he wanted it to be just him and justin for a while... that he didn't want justin getting attatched or giving his heart to someone that jeff wasn't ready to give his heart to. (no offense was meant by that.) so this is definitely a promising thing. :) right????? jeff's even gotten to where he refers to "us" getting justin and "we've" got justin. *heart melts*
anyway, jeff took me out to eat at red lobster tonight. it was really helpful. it got our minds off of it... even though we talked a lot about it. it's refreshing that jeff is being so positive about all this... if this were my ex, eddie, he'd be so damned negative about it and that would drive me crazy. we're definitely looking forward to the weekend. :) let me tell you, though, tonight's alone time was much needed and greatly enjoyed. :)
this weekend will be wonderful. :) it makes me feel sooooooooooo happy beyond words that jeff's so eager to spend time alone with me. i'm a little taken back by it, definitely flattered. it just shows how much he cares about me. :)
jeff's such a wonderful man. i can't think of many things, maybe one or two minor things that we don't have in common. i really do love this man. :) i believe this is what love is SUPPOSED to feel like. :)
it hurt me more than i ever expected when justin left. i keep hearing his voice and the pitter-patter of his lil piggies (toes... i like to "get his piggies" hehe. a game we play.) across the kitchen floor. i felt so empty after practice. i was disoriented, couldn't think straight. it hurt me and jeff both, but we both refused to cry. unfortunately, jeff's mom couldn't choke back the tears. :/ poor mom. (that's what i call his mom. in fact, jeff calls my mom "mom" too. hehe. isn't that cute!??)
did i mention that justin has gotten to where he tells me he loves me? and that i'm in his heart? he's the sweetest thing. :) what's even better is that jeff is as tickled about it as i am. *extremely big smile* that's a BIG change from back in march when jeff told me he wanted it to be just him and justin for a while... that he didn't want justin getting attatched or giving his heart to someone that jeff wasn't ready to give his heart to. (no offense was meant by that.) so this is definitely a promising thing. :) right????? jeff's even gotten to where he refers to "us" getting justin and "we've" got justin. *heart melts*
anyway, jeff took me out to eat at red lobster tonight. it was really helpful. it got our minds off of it... even though we talked a lot about it. it's refreshing that jeff is being so positive about all this... if this were my ex, eddie, he'd be so damned negative about it and that would drive me crazy. we're definitely looking forward to the weekend. :) let me tell you, though, tonight's alone time was much needed and greatly enjoyed. :)
this weekend will be wonderful. :) it makes me feel sooooooooooo happy beyond words that jeff's so eager to spend time alone with me. i'm a little taken back by it, definitely flattered. it just shows how much he cares about me. :)
jeff's such a wonderful man. i can't think of many things, maybe one or two minor things that we don't have in common. i really do love this man. :) i believe this is what love is SUPPOSED to feel like. :)