.update.
long time since i've posted. a lot's been going on... a lot of good things. i am very very happy at this point in my life.
i'm now full time and have been for a while. money is good. i love my job! i love the people at my job... i'm sooooo very happy there. :) this is really working out wonderfully.
jeff and i have been playing my favorite game... i got him hooked on it, too. he loves it!! we talk about the game all the time and what we're gonna do on it when we get home... lol. it's so cute. i knew he'd love the game once he tried it out. hehehe. AOS rocks!!!!
jeff and i are doing great. we're as happy together as ever. although he's not here tonight... i wish he were. i sleep like crap when he's not around. i really love him. he's a truly amazing man. he's got the biggest heart i've seen and no matter what it is we do, we have the best time together. my parents adore him. he was here earlier while i was out... my dad called him and asked him to help work on my brother's truck. something very out of character of my dad... but then again, my parents really adore him. my dad asked us to go deer hunting with him this december. i can't wait to take jeff down there! he'll LOVE the deer lease. :)
my monkey dog is moping. he misses his jeff like his momma. hehehe. he's so cute. he slept with us last night... he was so happy about that.
went to the doctor last week and it went well for the most part. they were excited to see that i've lost 25 pounds since last year's visit. they wondered what i'm doing... i just told them i'm not really doing anything differently. guess i'm just a butt load happier this year as opposed to last. haha.
my one bad bit of news is that my pap smear came back abnormal. it looks like it's something called mild dysplasia which could be pre-cancerous. it's a bit scary, but i'm not at all worried. i have a biopsy coming up the day before my birthday. my mom's going with me... although jeff wants to go... i'd rather him go to work and not worry about it. he's really concerned about me. the last thing i want for him is to worry about me. everything else is normal... functionally. i don't feel any different, of course. i looked up dysplasia on WebMD.com and it's something that comes before cervical cancer... but cervical cancer takes a very long time to develop and is very easy to treat. i'm thankful to have someone that's so very supportive of me at this point.
it's weird. and i don't mean this as a cut-down or negatively towards either one of them... but now that i've found this out, it makes me thankful that i'm not with either shannon or eddie at this point in my life. why? since cancer has hit so close to home with the both of them, i think if i was with either one of them right now, it would be a lot for either one of them to handle. i wouldn't want them to feel like cancer is eating away at the people closest to them. not that i want that burden on jeff, either. i don't want anyone to worry about me... because this is really nothing to be worried about. jeff has a lot on his plate already to worry about and this is just one more thing that could stress him out. he's being so great about it. (not that shannon or eddie wouldn't be supportive... like i said, it's a bit of a sensative subject for the 2 of them)
i'm so extremely thankful for jeff. he's my happiness. he's my love. he makes me feel complete. he took wonderful care of me while i was sick last week... something no one's ever really done for me. not in the way he did. i love how he goes out of his way to show me his appreciation... and allows me to do the same. it's amazing how he has not only my heart, but all of me. and i've got his. :)
i'm now full time and have been for a while. money is good. i love my job! i love the people at my job... i'm sooooo very happy there. :) this is really working out wonderfully.
jeff and i have been playing my favorite game... i got him hooked on it, too. he loves it!! we talk about the game all the time and what we're gonna do on it when we get home... lol. it's so cute. i knew he'd love the game once he tried it out. hehehe. AOS rocks!!!!
jeff and i are doing great. we're as happy together as ever. although he's not here tonight... i wish he were. i sleep like crap when he's not around. i really love him. he's a truly amazing man. he's got the biggest heart i've seen and no matter what it is we do, we have the best time together. my parents adore him. he was here earlier while i was out... my dad called him and asked him to help work on my brother's truck. something very out of character of my dad... but then again, my parents really adore him. my dad asked us to go deer hunting with him this december. i can't wait to take jeff down there! he'll LOVE the deer lease. :)
my monkey dog is moping. he misses his jeff like his momma. hehehe. he's so cute. he slept with us last night... he was so happy about that.
went to the doctor last week and it went well for the most part. they were excited to see that i've lost 25 pounds since last year's visit. they wondered what i'm doing... i just told them i'm not really doing anything differently. guess i'm just a butt load happier this year as opposed to last. haha.
my one bad bit of news is that my pap smear came back abnormal. it looks like it's something called mild dysplasia which could be pre-cancerous. it's a bit scary, but i'm not at all worried. i have a biopsy coming up the day before my birthday. my mom's going with me... although jeff wants to go... i'd rather him go to work and not worry about it. he's really concerned about me. the last thing i want for him is to worry about me. everything else is normal... functionally. i don't feel any different, of course. i looked up dysplasia on WebMD.com and it's something that comes before cervical cancer... but cervical cancer takes a very long time to develop and is very easy to treat. i'm thankful to have someone that's so very supportive of me at this point.
it's weird. and i don't mean this as a cut-down or negatively towards either one of them... but now that i've found this out, it makes me thankful that i'm not with either shannon or eddie at this point in my life. why? since cancer has hit so close to home with the both of them, i think if i was with either one of them right now, it would be a lot for either one of them to handle. i wouldn't want them to feel like cancer is eating away at the people closest to them. not that i want that burden on jeff, either. i don't want anyone to worry about me... because this is really nothing to be worried about. jeff has a lot on his plate already to worry about and this is just one more thing that could stress him out. he's being so great about it. (not that shannon or eddie wouldn't be supportive... like i said, it's a bit of a sensative subject for the 2 of them)
i'm so extremely thankful for jeff. he's my happiness. he's my love. he makes me feel complete. he took wonderful care of me while i was sick last week... something no one's ever really done for me. not in the way he did. i love how he goes out of his way to show me his appreciation... and allows me to do the same. it's amazing how he has not only my heart, but all of me. and i've got his. :)