Everything is gone...
I went through everything in my room today. I got rid of everything. Cigarettes, pyrex, etc. I also took everything that reminded me of Brian, Tim, and Darren, and shoved it all in a box (including diaries) to go into the attic. I feel like crying, but I know that it is time to close that chapter of my life, and start acting good, not to mention clean. I don't need to be reminded daily of the mistakes I have made, and the people I have hurt. It's over with. It's done. It's a new beginning. I am not sure if I will be able to quit smoking though, but it should be a challenge. And if I achieve that goal, I can only imagine how good it would make me feel.
Last night I went out with Alicia and Jon. It was ok, nothing really *exciting* happened. We just sort of hung out and did our thing. Today I got up around 11, and hung out for a bit. Went to lunch with my dad, and then started kicking ass in my bedroom. Tomorrow I have the MS walk at 7:30 in the morning... that should be interesting. And Monday I am going to go get service hours for school since god only knows I need them. Then I need to work on my final for PE, and science homework. It's going to be a busy couple of days. Oh joy.
"Some day you'll cry for me like i cried for you, someday you'll miss me like I missed you, someday you'll need me like I needed you, someday you'll love me, but I won't love you."
"I'm convincing myself, yes I'll find someone new, I wont be alone, and I won't be with you.. you're waiting for me, to crawl back to your side, but no.. not this time, I'm keeping my pride.. so goodbye forever, i\I'll be on my way, it's going to take time, but I'll be okay."
Last night I went out with Alicia and Jon. It was ok, nothing really *exciting* happened. We just sort of hung out and did our thing. Today I got up around 11, and hung out for a bit. Went to lunch with my dad, and then started kicking ass in my bedroom. Tomorrow I have the MS walk at 7:30 in the morning... that should be interesting. And Monday I am going to go get service hours for school since god only knows I need them. Then I need to work on my final for PE, and science homework. It's going to be a busy couple of days. Oh joy.
"Some day you'll cry for me like i cried for you, someday you'll miss me like I missed you, someday you'll need me like I needed you, someday you'll love me, but I won't love you."
"I'm convincing myself, yes I'll find someone new, I wont be alone, and I won't be with you.. you're waiting for me, to crawl back to your side, but no.. not this time, I'm keeping my pride.. so goodbye forever, i\I'll be on my way, it's going to take time, but I'll be okay."