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god what the fuck...this past week at work has been like hell.
saturday we had a guy commit suicide by shooting himself point-blank in the face in the parking lot, right in front of everyone. that was not pretty.
we had two stabbings from two rival gangs. both were in the ER and about to stab someone else. and fuck, some of these gang members were like...14.
then last night we had an ambulance come bring this 17 year old kid named max that i knew when i was still with justin. back story to this is that justin used to sell h to him, and they were pretty good friends until justin moved away. and this SEVENTEEN year old KID DIED. he od'ed on heroin. i knew him really well...when we got his MRI back his brain was super-swelled up, and no brain activity. and i was one of the techs that had to bag him.
it's so fucking tragic.
i don't even have the words...
i mean, fuck he was 17. he was just a baby. back when justin used to sell to all those CDO kids i never really thought about one of them dying because i was a fuckin junkie myself. but now...
it's so fucking different to have seen this boy, dead. especially because it was in my work setting. and even more so because i actually had to disconnect all the shit from him, and bag him, and i knew him so well. it makes it that much more worse. i've had quite a few friends and people i know, overdose and die, but i never had to deal with it on a personal level like THAT.
this shit is so fucked up.
as much as i love working in the ER especially kino's because you get to see all the bad shit, when you see someone you knew die right in front of you because of fucking HEROIN..it's such a depressing mindfuck.
saturday we had a guy commit suicide by shooting himself point-blank in the face in the parking lot, right in front of everyone. that was not pretty.
we had two stabbings from two rival gangs. both were in the ER and about to stab someone else. and fuck, some of these gang members were like...14.
then last night we had an ambulance come bring this 17 year old kid named max that i knew when i was still with justin. back story to this is that justin used to sell h to him, and they were pretty good friends until justin moved away. and this SEVENTEEN year old KID DIED. he od'ed on heroin. i knew him really well...when we got his MRI back his brain was super-swelled up, and no brain activity. and i was one of the techs that had to bag him.
it's so fucking tragic.
i don't even have the words...
i mean, fuck he was 17. he was just a baby. back when justin used to sell to all those CDO kids i never really thought about one of them dying because i was a fuckin junkie myself. but now...
it's so fucking different to have seen this boy, dead. especially because it was in my work setting. and even more so because i actually had to disconnect all the shit from him, and bag him, and i knew him so well. it makes it that much more worse. i've had quite a few friends and people i know, overdose and die, but i never had to deal with it on a personal level like THAT.
this shit is so fucked up.
as much as i love working in the ER especially kino's because you get to see all the bad shit, when you see someone you knew die right in front of you because of fucking HEROIN..it's such a depressing mindfuck.