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I called R. and emailed E. today. I had to be the bigger person and apologize for all that went on last year. It was beyond ridiculous.
I had this funny idea in my head that when I called her, everything would be the same. That she'd rush right over and we'd talk for hours and everything would be right in the world again.
How wrong I was.
It's like everyone has moved on..
Without me.
We talked about everything that happened for about an hour, and she said we could do something this weekend, and figure it out. She was so different. Older almost. I'm sure we've all changed.. I just didn't think we would.
I doubt this weekend will happen. But I'll do everything to make it. Even though part of me wants to say, "Whatever. Forget it."
What I learned today (even though it's not even noon):
You can never, ever, go back.
I had this funny idea in my head that when I called her, everything would be the same. That she'd rush right over and we'd talk for hours and everything would be right in the world again.
How wrong I was.
It's like everyone has moved on..
Without me.
We talked about everything that happened for about an hour, and she said we could do something this weekend, and figure it out. She was so different. Older almost. I'm sure we've all changed.. I just didn't think we would.
I doubt this weekend will happen. But I'll do everything to make it. Even though part of me wants to say, "Whatever. Forget it."
What I learned today (even though it's not even noon):
You can never, ever, go back.