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the best kind of love,
is the kind you can't describe..
today i did..
an ass load of nothing. slept till only 12:30, because a certain heather doesnt know how to let people sleep. i couldn't go anywhere because i had to wait for DHL to deliver my phone (i lost my phone..so i had to get a new one. gayness. i've already dropped it.) DHL didn't get here until 2:45 ..then i had to go to a verizon store to get it activated, then me and heather went to Angie's..she ate. i watched her eat. oh god, fun. then i dropped her off at work..came home. waited for my mom to get home and me and her went out to dinner to Chili's. and what's even more sad, is i had more fun with my mom than i did with my "best friend". hummm. let that one sit for a second.
okay, some ventage.
nobody besides me really see's her for who she is. when you first meet her you think that she is just a total sweetheart. that she wants to give you everything and make you happy. then you realize that what she wants is everything from you. she will offer to buy lunch, but eventually find some way in the future to throw it in your face. find some way to make you feel guilty about actually letting her pay. she would never do it "just because" she's your friend. but that's what she wants you to think when she's doing this little charade. she lies. she cheats. she is not who you think she is. but im sure she has everyone fooled. i wonder why i have such a complex about my body. maybe because she is constantly over my shoulder telling me that i need to excercise, eat less, wear certain things. darling, you have 15 pounds on me, take your own advice. i hate excercising, so kiss my fat ass. i eat better than you. and i think i dress damn cute..just because my ass and tits aren't hanging out doesn't mean that what i wear isn't attractive. i dont need guys to want my body, i have a personality. thanx. i don't lie about knowing how to surf, or knowing how to play guitar. i dont feel the need to constantly compete with you or any other girl just to feel good about myself. i dont feel the need to cheat on my boyfriend or have sex with multiple guys to feel sexy.
i am definately not trying to toot my own horn, but dear lord. your just not that amazing. make peace with that.
and i am contemplating living with this girl??
on a lighter, less bitchy side..
so when do you know you have found the one? well, if the one is someone you have fun with, have an amazing friendship with, care deeply about, see the relationship going somewhere long term, and you simply are just amazed with everything they do. then i guess you've found it.
we have fun together, we have an amazing friendship, i care so much for him, this could definately go somewhere, and yeh..every detail amazes me. i wouldn't change a single thing about him.
hummm. we'll let that one sit too.
off to bed. god my hands are cold. and im hungry, i might just eat a cookie. get over it bitch.
is the kind you can't describe..
today i did..
an ass load of nothing. slept till only 12:30, because a certain heather doesnt know how to let people sleep. i couldn't go anywhere because i had to wait for DHL to deliver my phone (i lost my phone..so i had to get a new one. gayness. i've already dropped it.) DHL didn't get here until 2:45 ..then i had to go to a verizon store to get it activated, then me and heather went to Angie's..she ate. i watched her eat. oh god, fun. then i dropped her off at work..came home. waited for my mom to get home and me and her went out to dinner to Chili's. and what's even more sad, is i had more fun with my mom than i did with my "best friend". hummm. let that one sit for a second.
okay, some ventage.
nobody besides me really see's her for who she is. when you first meet her you think that she is just a total sweetheart. that she wants to give you everything and make you happy. then you realize that what she wants is everything from you. she will offer to buy lunch, but eventually find some way in the future to throw it in your face. find some way to make you feel guilty about actually letting her pay. she would never do it "just because" she's your friend. but that's what she wants you to think when she's doing this little charade. she lies. she cheats. she is not who you think she is. but im sure she has everyone fooled. i wonder why i have such a complex about my body. maybe because she is constantly over my shoulder telling me that i need to excercise, eat less, wear certain things. darling, you have 15 pounds on me, take your own advice. i hate excercising, so kiss my fat ass. i eat better than you. and i think i dress damn cute..just because my ass and tits aren't hanging out doesn't mean that what i wear isn't attractive. i dont need guys to want my body, i have a personality. thanx. i don't lie about knowing how to surf, or knowing how to play guitar. i dont feel the need to constantly compete with you or any other girl just to feel good about myself. i dont feel the need to cheat on my boyfriend or have sex with multiple guys to feel sexy.
i am definately not trying to toot my own horn, but dear lord. your just not that amazing. make peace with that.
and i am contemplating living with this girl??
on a lighter, less bitchy side..
so when do you know you have found the one? well, if the one is someone you have fun with, have an amazing friendship with, care deeply about, see the relationship going somewhere long term, and you simply are just amazed with everything they do. then i guess you've found it.
we have fun together, we have an amazing friendship, i care so much for him, this could definately go somewhere, and yeh..every detail amazes me. i wouldn't change a single thing about him.
hummm. we'll let that one sit too.
off to bed. god my hands are cold. and im hungry, i might just eat a cookie. get over it bitch.