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I'm really fucking tired of the way i feel, i havent felt so much shit in such a long time. as soon as things seem to get cool everything turns to shit. parents expect us to be something we arnt trying to help us in life but all they do is make it worse. everything i say now i cut myself short, id rather not talk at all, id rather be rotting in my room crying. im so tired of being ignored treated like i dont know what im doing. people fucking act like i have no clue as of what i am doing or even if i think it over before i do it. well you people that fucking think that are wrong you have no idea how much i think about the fucking shit i do and i wish i would have never gotten into all the shit i have in the last year. mainly i want someone to notice and for real notice how much pain i have been in and how much i need people with me because this being alone shit just isnt gonna work for me. im gonna be 16 in January and if im still felling like shit like i have for so many years, then whats the fucking point in giving a damn. also im tired of all the fucking immature 8th grade shit that i have to deal with cuz i go to fucking rancho del rey and all the name calling immature bullshit and im not gonna be a fucking hiacrit i do it to and the reason is, is because i am in the fucking grade stuck with all these immature assholes.FUCKTHEMALL
other than all that shit today ally and i walked to hillcrest and went and got some cool CDs but fucking forgot to get THEBLED i can't belive us ally how the fuck could we do that! then we went to PB and walked from there to mission beach and then as soon as we got there we had to go GAYNESS! but yea throwing up behind bushes, killing babies, driving in the parking lot, talking about where we wanna move, what car we want...stuff like that well...gtg BYE