Everyday...
When i was in primary school, i used to dread fridays.
Spelling test!
and me being the perfectionist i am, had to get 20 out of 20.
i thought at the time if i didn't my parents wouldn't love me anymore.
i have since realised that was the pressure i put on myself to do well.
when i was in high school, i used to dread maths, especially the double class
on Wednesday morning. Not because i wanted to do well,
just cause i didn't want to fail.
Now i dread the thought of going to work. Standing for 9hrs straight and being abused
my drunk rich people. I don't want to do well or fail...
i just want to serve them the right drink.
My whole life i have dreaded something, i would lie in bed at night, look at my mental
calender and shiver at the thought of something in each and every day.
I want to be bigger than that now, face the fears that i have, of real jobs and being successful,
going to the dentist and seeing a movie by myself.
For so long i have seen the world for all the things i dread to do..
Today i want that to change.
From this moment on, i want to live in each beautiful moment and linger on all the incredible parts of life.
i want to be five years old again,
with no responsibilities, making cubby houses in the backyard.
i want to see the world through the eyes of a child and capture all those yummy moments of discovery.
From today i will be an explorer in my own world.
As a commencment to my exploration i found this...
Its a start.
Spelling test!
and me being the perfectionist i am, had to get 20 out of 20.
i thought at the time if i didn't my parents wouldn't love me anymore.
i have since realised that was the pressure i put on myself to do well.
when i was in high school, i used to dread maths, especially the double class
on Wednesday morning. Not because i wanted to do well,
just cause i didn't want to fail.
Now i dread the thought of going to work. Standing for 9hrs straight and being abused
my drunk rich people. I don't want to do well or fail...
i just want to serve them the right drink.
My whole life i have dreaded something, i would lie in bed at night, look at my mental
calender and shiver at the thought of something in each and every day.
I want to be bigger than that now, face the fears that i have, of real jobs and being successful,
going to the dentist and seeing a movie by myself.
For so long i have seen the world for all the things i dread to do..
Today i want that to change.
From this moment on, i want to live in each beautiful moment and linger on all the incredible parts of life.
i want to be five years old again,
with no responsibilities, making cubby houses in the backyard.
i want to see the world through the eyes of a child and capture all those yummy moments of discovery.
From today i will be an explorer in my own world.
As a commencment to my exploration i found this...
Its a start.