this is from last week but i had to insert it again sorry guys
um ignore the quotes from before.. heh.. well alot has been popping since before.. heh.. for one last night me n keith had one of our little fights.. it was very bad.. cuz everytime we fight i dont know if we are going to be okay afterwards.. i woke up at 4 am and wrote him an extremely long e-mail proving my point to why i can't let go of things.. i woke up this morning while everyone was in Erie.. and before i went to tkd tonight i went online and got an email from him i actually printed it out so i could read it more and stuff.. some of it made sense some of it made me feel like everything between us was a complete lie.. so i was pretty tense today and a little moody.. in the car going to jong park.. i almost had tears in my eyes a couple times but i have to admit i was more understanding than usual and it wasn't that bad.. um..
tkd was alright i had a really bad head ache actually i still have it .. it sucks i should take an asprin.. hmm maybe? um i dunno i was frustrated.. extremely frustrated.. its like cram time right now.. eat sleep breathe itf tae kwon do.. i have frikken 10 days until my pre-test... oh my god lol.. k so the 2 classes in toranto have been canceled.. the one on the 11th is gunna be in NT now though but the one on the 5th is canceled for good.. which sucks lol i wanted to spend some quality time with burg on his birthday =( ... hehe not gunna happen.. rick has been helping me out alot with my problems with keith and stuff.. and its frikken sweet to have people like him who actually listen to your problems ; give good advice ( which i still don't listen too ) ; and who care... hehe =) i was miserable last night and today which sucked.. badly.. the wheather was pretty sweet though...uhm yea i need to stop overreacting.. i wish like maybe for one day out of my life i knew what it was like to just let go of someone.. actually wait.. i remember one time.. with my mom it was either like around september or october or... like last summer.. i think i just told her off... and stuff i never do that.. like i told her i didnt want her in my life.. but i guess in a strange sorta way its different because i was in control not her.. see with me and keith.. i never feel in control.. never.. i feel like he could change us in a second and thats sorta how we are.. hes not controling but he does hold more power than i do.. its frustrating all i ever did was love him ... and at one point i thought he loved me too? maybe not.. i'm having doubts.. big ones.. scarry ones.. k well im done with this im gunna look for some graphics
xox moriah xox
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tkd was alright i had a really bad head ache actually i still have it .. it sucks i should take an asprin.. hmm maybe? um i dunno i was frustrated.. extremely frustrated.. its like cram time right now.. eat sleep breathe itf tae kwon do.. i have frikken 10 days until my pre-test... oh my god lol.. k so the 2 classes in toranto have been canceled.. the one on the 11th is gunna be in NT now though but the one on the 5th is canceled for good.. which sucks lol i wanted to spend some quality time with burg on his birthday =( ... hehe not gunna happen.. rick has been helping me out alot with my problems with keith and stuff.. and its frikken sweet to have people like him who actually listen to your problems ; give good advice ( which i still don't listen too ) ; and who care... hehe =) i was miserable last night and today which sucked.. badly.. the wheather was pretty sweet though...uhm yea i need to stop overreacting.. i wish like maybe for one day out of my life i knew what it was like to just let go of someone.. actually wait.. i remember one time.. with my mom it was either like around september or october or... like last summer.. i think i just told her off... and stuff i never do that.. like i told her i didnt want her in my life.. but i guess in a strange sorta way its different because i was in control not her.. see with me and keith.. i never feel in control.. never.. i feel like he could change us in a second and thats sorta how we are.. hes not controling but he does hold more power than i do.. its frustrating all i ever did was love him ... and at one point i thought he loved me too? maybe not.. i'm having doubts.. big ones.. scarry ones.. k well im done with this im gunna look for some graphics
xox moriah xox
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