well well.. dont cry from this disturbing shit
well lots has been happening i went to lockport last wednesday on buses to see keith i was gunna spend the night.. i lied to my family & said i went to bethanys n i got caught keith almost went to jail.. friday i went to a bball game we lost.. ha way to cheer me up =( then i tried calling keith alot but i dunno that kinda got fucked up cuz he was with phyllis the whole night.. then this girl erin came over n she tried talking to me cuz ryan has been really mad @ me lately .. so yea n i thought that was really fake.. but w/e shes sorta nice she looks like christina augillera in the face sorta and with the hair.. but i didnt really like her cuz she did seem fake like ur gunna do whatever the hell my brother likes? oh and ur gunna be with my brother? hmmmm not good.. yea so then from friday night til tuesday night keith wasnt talking to me.. and i guess its either friends or nothing.. yah thats really hard.. uhm yea basically for all of those days i was extremely depressed.. part of me still is.. uhm on monday i went to stephs.. n russell came over a hour late.. and that was alright i guess.. i poured water on his head.. lol uhm yea hes a fun person to be around so he was sorta cheering me up but not really.. steph still likes him alot.. n thats cute.. uhm yea then @ like close to 7 i got picked up.. then @ 7:30 i was just gunna take a nap but i ended up sleeping til the morning.. then tuesday i got to go to tennis & tkd so i got happier but no dustin? wtf? lol.. uhm yea but that was sweet having classes =) i told burg everything heh hes amazing uhm yea then when i got home i chilled downstairs til like 10:45 then i made an attempt to call keith we talked and it felt sorta good.. like to actually be able to talk to him.. but things arent like they were like everything is extremely limited and i mean extremely ... i dunno i hate that.. but everything is his choice ... and i cant stop that.. so wednesday was alright i was really tired.. tkd was okay michelle n alyssa went =) we had to do alot of self defense i just remember the last one which was pretty cool.. i just remember that theres a pressure point on the nose like in the middle and if u find it and take the person off balance then .... i dunno then u can take them to the ground and prolly grappling from there... im gunna go to see someone for my shoulders and my back i really cant wait i need something to help them out cuz they hurt all the time .. o and the spill canvas & panic! at the disco are amazing bands =)