one fucked up chat
ChasTeL 2 2: fuck you should be able to relate if anything
ChasTeL 2 2: grant is a shitty bf and you put up with it
gone Vintage: of course but see i dont kiss his ass about anything
gone Vintage: if he's wrong ill come out and say it and if im wrong ill come out and say it, but i dont sit around and complain about it. i just get over it cuz i can
ChasTeL 2 2: i admit things
gone Vintage: yes now and its like a kick and a punch
ChasTeL 2 2: just not to you because you might try to screw me over
gone Vintage: i wont screw you over
ChasTeL 2 2: when we went out we wiped the slate clean
ChasTeL 2 2: I would bet that she talked shit on me too
ChasTeL 2 2: I know that she has fucked Kenneth and Jason
ChasTeL 2 2: she got mad at me because I hung out with another girl and told me that i stopped waiting on her
ChasTeL 2 2: she wants to talk more about it later
ChasTeL 2 2: I will be like you are fucking multiple guys
gone Vintage: okie
gone Vintage: and you will still give in?
ChasTeL 2 2: then she will say "how will i know what i want"
ChasTeL 2 2: it is because i fucked jen
ChasTeL 2 2: that is the reasoning for everythign
ChasTeL 2 2: that is why i cant go out with this other girl and still have feelings for jen
gone Vintage: and its because i fucked grant that i cant break up with him
gone Vintage: its as easy as that
ChasTeL 2 2: but do you feel like that though
gone Vintage: yea i do
gone Vintage: so who's the other chick?
ChasTeL 2 2: so we are in the same boat
gone Vintage: yea we are
gone Vintage: so we'll sink together
ChasTeL 2 2: and jen has been acting all nice to me lately
ChasTeL 2 2: she actually texted me this morning
ChasTeL 2 2: and she says she misses me
gone Vintage: and you miss her
gone Vintage: you've just been surpressing it
ChasTeL 2 2: yes
gone Vintage: trust me
gone Vintage: i know
ChasTeL 2 2: i know i am
gone Vintage: you still like her
gone Vintage: youve NEVER been over her
ChasTeL 2 2: i miss her and like her
gone Vintage: YOU NEVER got over it
ChasTeL 2 2: yes
ChasTeL 2 2: i never got over her
gone Vintage: because you mention her every time we talk
gone Vintage: you called that night just to tell about how you saw her a starbucks
ChasTeL 2 2: and that i was with the other girl but ya
ChasTeL 2 2: and hell that girl is very attractive and cool
ChasTeL 2 2: and she seems to like me
gone Vintage: you were with another girl that nIGHT???????
ChasTeL 2 2: yes
ChasTeL 2 2: i was
gone Vintage: OOOH
ChasTeL 2 2: the girl jen used to hate
gone Vintage: its one of these scenerioes
ChasTeL 2 2: watch it is going to turn out jen doesn't feel anything
gone Vintage: but jealousy....
gone Vintage: thats what it is
ChasTeL 2 2: and it was only because i was with her
ChasTeL 2 2: fuck this bull shit
ChasTeL 2 2: I want my time machine so i can go back and be single
gone Vintage: and then what?
ChasTeL 2 2: not feel like this =)
gone Vintage: relive these past 3 months?
gone Vintage: i know exactly how you feel
ChasTeL 2 2: but seriously
ChasTeL 2 2: this could mess me up
ChasTeL 2 2: and i could look at girls differently n
ChasTeL 2 2: in a not good way
gone Vintage: yea no kidding
gone Vintage: what a horrible way to start off
gone Vintage: sorry keith but you're definitely screwed over
gone Vintage: BAD
ChasTeL 2 2: i know
gone Vintage: and you will continue to be for awhile
gone Vintage: so what are you gonna do?
gone Vintage: you know whats best for you
gone Vintage: and you know what you want
gone Vintage: and its all lust so you should ask yourself....
gone Vintage: is it worth it?
gone Vintage: is a week of pain worth three hours of happiness?
ChasTeL 2 2: no itsnot
gone Vintage: if you wanna know why im still with grant....its because i think it is worth it
gone Vintage: and i read my journal and i realize that i fought and waited so long to be with him
gone Vintage: that im just gonna wait this out
gone Vintage: until its over and see it to the end
gone Vintage: and its fucked up as hell. when we talk we're really horrible to each other
gone Vintage: but i guess i like the challenge
gone Vintage: but what i want is what you want and what anyone wants
gone Vintage: i want to love and be loved back in the fullest
ChasTeL 2 2: well we can be friedns i guess because we both get fucked over
So i guess i do realized it and everyone keeps asking why i tolerate it and am still nothing but nice to him. i guess they should really be asking why he treats me like shit because thats the answer i wanna know.
ChasTeL 2 2: grant is a shitty bf and you put up with it
gone Vintage: of course but see i dont kiss his ass about anything
gone Vintage: if he's wrong ill come out and say it and if im wrong ill come out and say it, but i dont sit around and complain about it. i just get over it cuz i can
ChasTeL 2 2: i admit things
gone Vintage: yes now and its like a kick and a punch
ChasTeL 2 2: just not to you because you might try to screw me over
gone Vintage: i wont screw you over
ChasTeL 2 2: when we went out we wiped the slate clean
ChasTeL 2 2: I would bet that she talked shit on me too
ChasTeL 2 2: I know that she has fucked Kenneth and Jason
ChasTeL 2 2: she got mad at me because I hung out with another girl and told me that i stopped waiting on her
ChasTeL 2 2: she wants to talk more about it later
ChasTeL 2 2: I will be like you are fucking multiple guys
gone Vintage: okie
gone Vintage: and you will still give in?
ChasTeL 2 2: then she will say "how will i know what i want"
ChasTeL 2 2: it is because i fucked jen
ChasTeL 2 2: that is the reasoning for everythign
ChasTeL 2 2: that is why i cant go out with this other girl and still have feelings for jen
gone Vintage: and its because i fucked grant that i cant break up with him
gone Vintage: its as easy as that
ChasTeL 2 2: but do you feel like that though
gone Vintage: yea i do
gone Vintage: so who's the other chick?
ChasTeL 2 2: so we are in the same boat
gone Vintage: yea we are
gone Vintage: so we'll sink together
ChasTeL 2 2: and jen has been acting all nice to me lately
ChasTeL 2 2: she actually texted me this morning
ChasTeL 2 2: and she says she misses me
gone Vintage: and you miss her
gone Vintage: you've just been surpressing it
ChasTeL 2 2: yes
gone Vintage: trust me
gone Vintage: i know
ChasTeL 2 2: i know i am
gone Vintage: you still like her
gone Vintage: youve NEVER been over her
ChasTeL 2 2: i miss her and like her
gone Vintage: YOU NEVER got over it
ChasTeL 2 2: yes
ChasTeL 2 2: i never got over her
gone Vintage: because you mention her every time we talk
gone Vintage: you called that night just to tell about how you saw her a starbucks
ChasTeL 2 2: and that i was with the other girl but ya
ChasTeL 2 2: and hell that girl is very attractive and cool
ChasTeL 2 2: and she seems to like me
gone Vintage: you were with another girl that nIGHT???????
ChasTeL 2 2: yes
ChasTeL 2 2: i was
gone Vintage: OOOH
ChasTeL 2 2: the girl jen used to hate
gone Vintage: its one of these scenerioes
ChasTeL 2 2: watch it is going to turn out jen doesn't feel anything
gone Vintage: but jealousy....
gone Vintage: thats what it is
ChasTeL 2 2: and it was only because i was with her
ChasTeL 2 2: fuck this bull shit
ChasTeL 2 2: I want my time machine so i can go back and be single
gone Vintage: and then what?
ChasTeL 2 2: not feel like this =)
gone Vintage: relive these past 3 months?
gone Vintage: i know exactly how you feel
ChasTeL 2 2: but seriously
ChasTeL 2 2: this could mess me up
ChasTeL 2 2: and i could look at girls differently n
ChasTeL 2 2: in a not good way
gone Vintage: yea no kidding
gone Vintage: what a horrible way to start off
gone Vintage: sorry keith but you're definitely screwed over
gone Vintage: BAD
ChasTeL 2 2: i know
gone Vintage: and you will continue to be for awhile
gone Vintage: so what are you gonna do?
gone Vintage: you know whats best for you
gone Vintage: and you know what you want
gone Vintage: and its all lust so you should ask yourself....
gone Vintage: is it worth it?
gone Vintage: is a week of pain worth three hours of happiness?
ChasTeL 2 2: no itsnot
gone Vintage: if you wanna know why im still with grant....its because i think it is worth it
gone Vintage: and i read my journal and i realize that i fought and waited so long to be with him
gone Vintage: that im just gonna wait this out
gone Vintage: until its over and see it to the end
gone Vintage: and its fucked up as hell. when we talk we're really horrible to each other
gone Vintage: but i guess i like the challenge
gone Vintage: but what i want is what you want and what anyone wants
gone Vintage: i want to love and be loved back in the fullest
ChasTeL 2 2: well we can be friedns i guess because we both get fucked over
So i guess i do realized it and everyone keeps asking why i tolerate it and am still nothing but nice to him. i guess they should really be asking why he treats me like shit because thats the answer i wanna know.