UCSB
So I finally got one of these things (journal) Techinically I've had hand-written ones all my life so this is a step up. I'm finally modernizing. First things first; I AM NOT EMO. I hate this whole culture with a passion and this is NOT an emo journal.
Didn't get into the school of my dreams (UCSB). I wish i could go back to last year when i didnt care where i went and i didn't care about leaving home. Devastating. No one should have to go through this. My mom is totally happy that i didn't get in. I can see the sparkle in her eyes. I couldn't even open the envelope when i got it. I was planning on shoving it in a drawer, but kat opens it. She sure kept it to herself cuz if i had heard screaming i wouldn't have care cuz i knew i had gotten in, but i didnt. my mom's pissed that I'm pissed at her for not saying something comforting. "hey mom i got my letter from SB"--"yeah i heard" (BIG SMILE) gross i hate her. i need to get away from here even if it means going to riverside. i swear they need a barber, dentist, and fashion consultant there. I see it as if i dont leave home now, i will be that 60 year old woman who raises 3 dozen cats and lives with her mom next door to your kids. God i hope i dont scare your kids.
My best friends: R needs to wear less black cuz she's too skinny and C needs some more frilly things in her closet. JT's sleeping around with four different guys. she's got the sex drive of a rabbit i swear. sometimes i think of bottling whatever is in her system and putting it on the market. i could make billions.
Didn't get into the school of my dreams (UCSB). I wish i could go back to last year when i didnt care where i went and i didn't care about leaving home. Devastating. No one should have to go through this. My mom is totally happy that i didn't get in. I can see the sparkle in her eyes. I couldn't even open the envelope when i got it. I was planning on shoving it in a drawer, but kat opens it. She sure kept it to herself cuz if i had heard screaming i wouldn't have care cuz i knew i had gotten in, but i didnt. my mom's pissed that I'm pissed at her for not saying something comforting. "hey mom i got my letter from SB"--"yeah i heard" (BIG SMILE) gross i hate her. i need to get away from here even if it means going to riverside. i swear they need a barber, dentist, and fashion consultant there. I see it as if i dont leave home now, i will be that 60 year old woman who raises 3 dozen cats and lives with her mom next door to your kids. God i hope i dont scare your kids.
My best friends: R needs to wear less black cuz she's too skinny and C needs some more frilly things in her closet. JT's sleeping around with four different guys. she's got the sex drive of a rabbit i swear. sometimes i think of bottling whatever is in her system and putting it on the market. i could make billions.