Poem 033104
I think i can't get enough of something
Because there's a big hole in my soul
I'm trying to escape these feelings
But they just won't go
Something big and not replacable
There's definitely a gap of some sort
I turn the music up in my head
Hoping the feelings will just distort
I still can't find a place to esacpe it
And I can't find a place to hide
I've try to bring them out to deal with them
But I just cried, cried, and cried
People say I should to talk to someone
And some say to walk it off
I've tried everything to push them away
I tried just about everything
At least that's what I thought
Sometimes I feel spontaneous enought to surprise you
It's been over a year passed
I keep thinking you'd still have the same feelings
Maybe what we had did last
Then I think of the process
I'd be drunk and looking to score
But my feelings are honest and real
That's how I'd end up at your door
You'd probably turn me away
Or direct me back to where I came
You know I can't resist you
But you don't feel the same
I keep swearing I'll move on
Party hard and have bundles of fun
But in the back of my head I keep thinking that if I had not done with i did
Would you have been the one
The one is something I don't believe in
because every person in your life can be that
But you were something else to me
And still I don't really want you back
Maybe it's just me
Or maybe it's a chick thing
We tend to not deal well when it comes to break ups
Chicks tend to hold on and cling
It's so hard for you to understand
You haven't been through this and don't get what this is about
And now when you see me
Just help me get over it but shutting me out