Day 13
today is day 13
wow
tommarrow is the 2 week mark. i never thought i could make it this long.
i weighed my self last night, i lost another 2 pounds, im down to 168. thats alright, but im pissed it isn't more. fuck i crave for the days i was 108. i miss them so bad. and i swear i'll be there agian soon. i just have to work with what i've got right now.
i woke up last night at 2 am, with the worst ear ach i have ever had. i cried. i took 3 pain pills and i think i passed out around 5. my Spanish teacher made me cry today. she was all grilling me on how i didn't have my letter to my pin pal in yet. and i feel stupied for crying, im just not feeling well and im sleep deprived, so next period im going to go appoligize and try and expalin my self. shes nice, i think she'll understand.
anyway. i have to be 165 on Friday, which shouln't be too hard. my best friend is comming over from Seattle, and she weighs 160. i'll just be 5 pounds more than her, and i think i might be able to deal with that.
last night she cut her hair short and dyed it pink, shes gonna look so punk rock when i see her.
when she gets here were going tannning and then were going to go buy vintage dresses. its gonna be fun.
today i get out of school at 1:30
i have a doctors appt at 2:30 i think, or maybe its 2.
then im going to go see my boyfriend. cuz i miss him.
anyway i gotta go, got to accually go do school stuff.
i'write later.
~~walk in beauty cuz that is what you are.
ana love ladies!
and stay strong, i know you all can
wow
tommarrow is the 2 week mark. i never thought i could make it this long.
i weighed my self last night, i lost another 2 pounds, im down to 168. thats alright, but im pissed it isn't more. fuck i crave for the days i was 108. i miss them so bad. and i swear i'll be there agian soon. i just have to work with what i've got right now.
i woke up last night at 2 am, with the worst ear ach i have ever had. i cried. i took 3 pain pills and i think i passed out around 5. my Spanish teacher made me cry today. she was all grilling me on how i didn't have my letter to my pin pal in yet. and i feel stupied for crying, im just not feeling well and im sleep deprived, so next period im going to go appoligize and try and expalin my self. shes nice, i think she'll understand.
anyway. i have to be 165 on Friday, which shouln't be too hard. my best friend is comming over from Seattle, and she weighs 160. i'll just be 5 pounds more than her, and i think i might be able to deal with that.
last night she cut her hair short and dyed it pink, shes gonna look so punk rock when i see her.
when she gets here were going tannning and then were going to go buy vintage dresses. its gonna be fun.
today i get out of school at 1:30
i have a doctors appt at 2:30 i think, or maybe its 2.
then im going to go see my boyfriend. cuz i miss him.
anyway i gotta go, got to accually go do school stuff.
i'write later.
~~walk in beauty cuz that is what you are.
ana love ladies!
and stay strong, i know you all can