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whats goin on journal..lets see..its been more than a minute..just havent had any inspiration..or free time..things have been well..amanda and i have been together for a year now..year and one month 2 be exact..lately i have been kinda second guessin "us"..it seems like all the excitments gone..i wanna go out..she doesnt..she wants to go do somthin..i dont..i dont know if thats normal after a year or what..i love her..i just wanna see what else is out there..but ive made that mistake before..i let my eyes wander..then my heart follows..i know that if i pass her up i will regret it..but im young..dumb and full of....well u know..it kinda gettin to me though..this is the longest relationship i have been in and i dont wanna mess it up..i wonder if i dont wanna mess it up cuz ive put so much time into this..or if i truly love her...i just know that im not as happy as i should be..anyways..carlos and i should be gettin up sat night..we both need a break..it will be good to get away from the mouths..i just got that new "vivian green" joint..its good..people will sleep on it though..beats are hot...im goin swimmin today..its gonna be hot as hell..my hair is gettin long..hopefully i wont touch it..i want it to get really long...i have no patience...i think thats it..im all out of poitless rambling..hope everyone is well..peace