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i wish i could be...
charming, likeable, funny, someone people trust, loved, beautiful, artistic, wrapped up in something new and beautiful, free, not lonely anymore, fulfilled, happy, productive, starry eyed, in the know, innocent...
i wish i didn't alienate people, i wish i attracted the kind of people i aspire to be friends with, i wish he would tell me what i did wrong so i could fix it...i wish the people i love weren't forgetting about me right now, when i need them the most. i think i need something new in my life, but i don't know what. everything has lost its sparkle, even the things i know i loved once. i'm pushing life away, and instead of finding me again, it has forgotten about me too. i don't know how to reach out again, pull everyone and everything back to me, because i don't even know where any of this mess started. if someone can see it, by all means, explain me to myself. i'm lost.
charming, likeable, funny, someone people trust, loved, beautiful, artistic, wrapped up in something new and beautiful, free, not lonely anymore, fulfilled, happy, productive, starry eyed, in the know, innocent...
i wish i didn't alienate people, i wish i attracted the kind of people i aspire to be friends with, i wish he would tell me what i did wrong so i could fix it...i wish the people i love weren't forgetting about me right now, when i need them the most. i think i need something new in my life, but i don't know what. everything has lost its sparkle, even the things i know i loved once. i'm pushing life away, and instead of finding me again, it has forgotten about me too. i don't know how to reach out again, pull everyone and everything back to me, because i don't even know where any of this mess started. if someone can see it, by all means, explain me to myself. i'm lost.