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so..i've decided to not smoke so much anymore...since summer started i've been smoking sooo much like 3 or more times a week...and sometimes even a couple times in one day..at first it wasn't a problem..but lately i've been flipping out everytime i smoke and getting realllly paranoid. top three things i flip out about...spiders (prob. because they're my biggest fear), someone being in my car...like in the backseat, horror movie style (when i drive high..which is another thing i need to stop doing) anddd peeing my pants?? last night i convinced myself i pissed my pants and even felt like wet...but i definitely didn't at all. then i made paul drive me home..which was a terrriiblee idea since i was gonee...anddd my parents definitely knew i was high as hell...like i peed..and as soon as i got out of the bathroom they were both standing right there and were like um..why are your eyes so messed up..have you been smoking pot? i was like WHAT..nooo..then i proceeded to tell them that i was at erik spratfords house (which wasnt a lie) and that i was having an allergic reaction to his cat...which is actually a believable story since i am allergic to cats and i have had an allergy attack at his house before. anddd luckily my eyes do get red as fuck when i get allergy attacks so my story wasnt insane..and for being as fucked up as i was..i handled the situation well. but i dunno...part of me thinks that they knew but just aren't gonna do anything. but who knows..i do feel kinda guilty though..soo thats why i'm gonna slow down with everything.
on a good note..i start working at the broadway grill tomorrow..which means i wont be broke anymore!
on a good note..i start working at the broadway grill tomorrow..which means i wont be broke anymore!